Cosmic Updates/Blog

Dark of the Moon

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This is a major Moon event . . . in a major passage ~ as we complete this powerful year of manifestation.

For myself personally it’s significant ~ merging with the symbol of ‘Wounding and Healing’ ~ Chiron, ‘the focus point/essence of personality and it’s expression’ ~ Sun/Moon midpoint, and ‘what shadows are revealed when love comes knocking’ (Leah Whitehorse) ~ Psyche.

Whatever, however this potent New Moon connects with your own energy ~ the power of transformation is great.  The power to renew, regenerate, allow lost parts of yourself into being.  Welcome the Shadow ~ a new road awaits.

Activations occur often by a person, situation or event . . . or simply by un~manifest energy circling your field.  These are significant times we’re passing through.  We have the opportunity to open doors not possible before.  A new world, new road opens up.  Everything is a mirror of where I stand.

I like to honour these gifted events . . . our great Mother Moon ~ her energy so much a part of our self.  Her cycle affecting all on Earth.  Her memories call ~ a voice silent but real.  She connects us to our past, our foundations ~ all those closely connected ~ that have walked before us . . . leaving us their heritage.

She shines in our sky for our delight . . . she sets the stage for love.  She’s Mother ~ she nurtures, she leads us to what we need ~ to feel comfort and ease.  She is home ~ where we feel safe.  She rules the waves ~ she takes us deep into unconscious realms.  She is beautiful . . . she shines her light so we can see our way.  Much is revealed when we open to her cyclic wisdom.

Personally and collectively I feel this Moon cycle is significant ~ the second last New Moon of this great year of manifestation.  I will honour this New Moon in a special place.  This is a turning point ~ to uncover what’s so long been hidden.

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lotsa luv to you all … marilyn  ❤ ❤ ❤

growth, evolution, contentment

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Snuggled under my purple moon and stars brushed cotton doona . . . only 6.30pm (real time), awake at 2.30am… so much has been happening.

After five years of solitude and healing. . . I began my steps back to the world.  So much transpired . . . my journey of healing in this special Sacred Land.  Early days of negotiations the voice was loud and clear ‘you need to ask the Land Spirits if you can be the next caretaker’.  Visions of ancient ceremonies, discovering sacred sites . . .  ‘used for three hundred years ~ before settlement’ the Diviner said.  I came to open a Healing Retreat.

So many magickal experiences ~ new, not experienced before.  Seeing beyond the physical, visits from Star people.  New world birthing, the arrival of the Sacred Feminine . . . my healing journey.  My body weak, they all supported me.  Love flowed abundantly, there were often tears on my cheeks.  I’d feel the embrace of the Mother, feel her hand caress my cheek ~ outside in the sleepy dawn, watching the stars and waiting for the sun.

And now it’s a new time . . . the gate is opening.  I’m new, body needs to build its strength.  I step out to meet.  An area not so familiar to me.  I trust, I know what is asked for arrives.  I tend my garden, I honour the beauty . . .  I learn to love myself.

Such big times . . . especially this last chapter of 2015.  I trust Life to care for me . . . I take care of myself.  Strange things happen, people appear in my space . . . trying to make sense, understand.  I am good and pure at my core.  We seek for others to understand . . . sometimes what we cannot say.

Things being offered . . . what is real, what is not.  So much happening inside me.  I trust myself . . . I allow myself to evolve.  I know that many are here with me . . . I’m never alone.  I’ve been told that often . . . I mustn’t forget.  Events can be confusing, don’t understand . . . hold on to myself . . . the clouds always part.

I remember . . .  back in January 1985 ~ I sent out a cry for help . . . the song filled the particles in the room . . . I knew where it came from.

lotsa luv to you all. . .  marilyn ❤ ❤ ❤

unedited words … this morning

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Energy’s been strong . . . or at least it’s effect on me.  I look at the sky charts ~ what is influencing?  Yes ~ our mighty Sun has been crossing swords with some of our distant buddies ~ big boys Uranus and Pluto.  Let’s just say they agreed something needed to be decided ~ made clear.  They know how to turn up the heat.

Feelings, emotions I hadn’t felt for a while . . . fear, dread, doubt.  What do I know, what do I reflect?  Oh goodness I don’t know.

Being ‘psychic’ ~ well aren’t we all?  It gets confusing at times . . . ‘cause residues of old weeping wounds still remain ~ if only in ghost form.  And boy do they like to get scary at times.

Some stuff I was ‘picking up’ turned out to be real . . . not the entire picture ~ but the important basic bits.  With others ~ well, especially in this area of ‘non-strength’ . . . things can be trickier.

I say non-strength ~ that’s what’s been;  yes ghosts of images remain.  Why my intention and focus are so critical ~ my clarity so important.

Another human can only add, illuminate or share my happiness ~ my Love and contentment, my Life in Peace.  That’s my job.  It’s tricky at times . . . god the vulnerability.

My Dad expulsed ~ seemingly without thought of consequence ~ on that significant day back in 1982.  It was the first visit I’d had with him ~ since Mum had recently passed.  He told me Mum had ‘visited’ the next door neighbour the night before (she had left her physical body) and told her friend many things . . . particularly in relation to Dad.

Out of body visits to neighbours ~ my non-speaking father continued.

‘You had Guardian Angels all around you when you were little’ ~ another bombshell from my silent father.  Then he said . . . ‘you went into hospital one little girl, and came out another’.  I think the shock temporarily froze my words ~ ‘wish I’d asked more’ I later often thought.

That’s all I heard on that fateful morning in Oatlands Sydney in 1982 ~ Mum still not buried…..

A new road appears

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October 1st ~ Mahalia’s birthday ❤

I am free ~ I luv the feeling of freedom. I belong to myself (a real Virgo trait) ~ no-one else. I answer to myself. My world revolves around who I am.

I create, I give, I support ~ I love, I care … by choice. My world is created by me ~ I luv this feeling of freedom.

Soooo many years of conditioning ~ how long has it been? Six thousand years some say … this age of patriarchy. Memories of who we were, who we are ~ are dim; the light gone out long ago ~ through shock and much mistreatment.

We’ve grown to mistrust our body ~ given it away, displayed a price tag ~ what we need in return. We have all we need in the core of our being. We’re radiant, beautiful, stunningly wonderful … we are ‘me’, myself ~ one of a kind.

We need to return to our beautiful bodies ~ celebrate its callings; its nuances ~ the shame is fading. Bar it from your living space ~ it has no place around you.

Yes years of denial have morphed into the physical ~ but its awakening. These times are mighty ~ powerful resources are available to us.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling ~ I belong to no man, not to anyone. I am complete within myself. I celebrate with abundant givingness ~ to myself. I luv who I am ~ how I move, what I do … I luv myself unconditionally.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

I’m woman ~ I’m powerful; I celebrate my longings and desires ~ they are but natural expressions of my love core. I’m free ~ the chains rusted with ages gone ~ disintegrated before my eyes. The door of the cage stands no more … the guards disappeared.

I’m free. I’m free to be uniquely me. I’m a beautiful woman ~ with many gifts.

The power of the woman has been rebirthed … she knocks on your door. Don’t be afraid ~ say yes, yes I’ll follow you. Goodness the world waits with breath held taut … the awakening of woman is a most powerful event ~ the likes of which has not been known for thousands and thousands and thousands of years.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

And if/when those moments of doubt appear ~ sink into yourself  ……

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I’d like to be more consistent…

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Last month’s blog… my first back in a while, I decided I’d like to be more regular, consistent… two areas that could do with some loving.  They haven’t been my strengths in the past… so muscles a little forlorn.  But it’s a new time and if you don’t step out there you’ll never know what could be.  You first need to go there in your seeing eye, in your creative vision.

I’m not sure how your life has been… but the big times haven’t really stopped for years… such a growth time.  An opportunity for healing which most certainly is unique.  So much is possible… we sit at the beginning of a new Age ♥  We are creators.

Looking at my Lunar Return chart this morning I saw Saturn about.  He’s the Master of regular and consistent.  Life is one long healing journey.  My latest venture… on-line dating.  I figured it was time to move my boundaries out a bit… with Capricorn Moon not so easy.  And Virgo’s are sooo fine ~ on-line dating is a wee bit gross.  Virgo/Neptune mix is very sensitive.  And very fussy.  But then they don’t like to offend anyone, they like to help.  I need to use Virgo’s highly perceptive and discriminating vision… and always trust my first impression.  A very dear friend/therapist used to say that to me often… ‘marilyn, trust your first impression.’

Learning is life long.

I wish you well on your travels… lotsa luv me ♥♥

chilly one this morning …

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It’s been a while.  I have been writing ~ every day.  Well, when do I not write?  I have journals upon journals, all different sizes and shapes.  I like the ones with paper covers, all different designs, colours and sizes ~ you used to be able to buy.  But since Crazy Clarks went into liquidation they’re becoming more difficult to find.  Buying plastic doesn’t turn me on.

Like yesterday ~ went into Kyogle to do some shopping.  Watson’s have the ‘shoppers’ buses on Thursdays.  They needed to put in a request… I wasn’t aware of all the paper work/bureaucracy involved.  Being an isolated rural community, I discovered, Watson’s can apply to government offices for a concession for running the buses.  They needed to request this before offering the Thursday Shopping service, which runs two a day.  From the stories they told, it wasn’t a simple process.

The buses aren’t packed, not the mid-day shopper one ~ yesterday there were only two of us, plus the driver Max.  Fortunately for Watson’s, it’s the school bus as well.  So mornings and late afternoons they fill up with all the country school kids.  It’s fascinating to observe… the country scene.  Sometimes Max, one of the Watson’s, will take a detour so he can take the person to their front gate.   Or if someone has heaps of shopping, he’ll park the bus right in front of their property, then get out and unpack all their shopping.  You see things here, you’d never see in the city.  ‘Someone should write a book about these guys’ I often mutter to myself.  I don’t really want to…. I have other things to write.  But I’m sure they’ll find a place in my tales, about my time here in the Woodenbong hills.

Anyway… I was talking about plastic; finally remembered to get some asafoetida at Bambu, the health food shop in Kyogle.  I kept forgetting.  Searched the shelves, couldn’t find it… ‘it’s in the middle row’ dear Sapatra calls from the counter.  I looked and looked scanning the middle shelves… I can’t find it.  ‘Where exactly’ I ask her.  Out she comes from behind the counter… ‘they’ve changed the packaging’ she says, in her very cute Asian accent.  It’s a bright yellow plastic container, with an equally bright blue label… adorned with a pic of what appears to be an Indian deity on the front.  It’s one dollar more… ‘paying for their new packaging’ I mutter to myself ‘; why does everything have to be in plastic?  I’ll search around and see if I can get it bulk.

I was feeling a bit wobbly still yesterday… that bang on the head on the weekend away has really traumatized my neck and spine.  Compressed all the vertebrae, inflaming all the attached muscles… of which there are many, connecting my head and my body.  Add to that the cleanse.  It’s nothing extreme (or is it?)…  the ‘flush’ only one day a week.  The first time was okay, the second was harder… and the last time was intense.  I woke the next morning feeling horrible, with such a severe headache ~ ended up on the lounge, horizontal, the whole day… even slept… the headache was yucky.  I looked shocking, so white and drawn.  ‘I think this is too violent for me’ I muttered to myself again and again.

My Intestines are pretty fussy and exceptionally sensitive (my whole body is)… Virgo rules the Small Intestine after all.  And they’re very stubborn… they do not like being forced.  They dig in their heels and offer their objection in no uncertain terms.  Also I’m losing weight, which really freaks me out.  I hate losing weight.  I can’t afford to ~ I’m already very slim.  So haven’t decided what to do.  Have left a message for my Naturopath, she hasn’t called back yet.  My skin is looking good thou, also my eyes are so much clearer… and beginning to turn green, in parts anyway.  The Herbalist I used to see years back in Boonah ~ she was the best ~ I wish she was still around.  A similar thing happened when I was seeing her, my eye colour was changing.  She told me that I should normally have blue eyes… not sure if that’s because of my heritage;  I was the only one in my family with hazel eyes.  And they have these specks… they’ve always been there, as long as I can remember.

The reason for doing the cleanse?  Time to refresh the elimination channels… but body being so sensitive ~ needs to be gentle.  See how we go.

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Anyway… I’ve broken the ice (a relevant term this morning) I’m back at my blog.  A cold chilly morning here, in the minuses… white filled the valley, the sunrise was sensational.  Fire’s burning, snug inside… better get on with the day.

much love… me ♥

Pluto’s visit

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I was playing around with a new function I found on my Astrology software… it randomly selects different signs and degrees… giving the sabian symbol for each.  Well, I’m a bit of a fan of energy transcriptions… it kept me amused for a while.

I took note of my Sun, Moon and Ascendant sabian symbols as they appeared. Now I’ve known of these before, but this particular morning, obviously, more was at play. Fascinating… as my dear Dad always said ‘there’s no such thing as a coincidence’.  I heard it often enough ~ it formed a groove in my brain.

It was the Moon’s sabian symbol that really stirred the deep flowing undercurrents of my being.  Fifteen degrees of Capricorn… ‘This degree shows being vibrant and alive and in the physical body… with enthusiasm and excitement about life and the future’ (by Linda Hill).

‘Wooohhh’… this sound jumped forcibly from my lips.  I zoomed right back to the hospital  ~ immediately ~ on reading those words.  I was still blowing air out of my mouth (you know the ones we do during childbirth) releasing old memories as I wrote… the memory vividly potent.  I felt it in my Solar Plexus, the cramping, the clench ~ my forehead creased in a painful frown.

I wasn’t enthusiastic and excited about life and the future at that time ~ surrounded by sickness and death… and deceit; long cold corridors, echoes of black shoes, so much white ~ cold instruments, unfriendly people, so many cries and angry retorts.  Alone, abandoned to face it on my own; obviously the gods had made me able to do this… or it never would have happened.  Life is Love after all.

But no coincidence ~ Sun opposing Pluto… those deep dark secrets being illuminated by the radiance of Apollo.  No hiding when Pluto’s around, or the Sun… brings light to those deep dark secrets, the ones hidden for Life (or so you planned).

Ah dear child all needs to be revealed, to walk anew along your golden path, red shoes sparkle, dreams illuminated, joy in your heart… and the biggest smile on your face.

Yes even Pluto is our friend.

No, there were not many gymnasiums in my future… Polio made sure of that.

I luved gymnastics at school 🙂

till next time from me

some more writing…

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The Ishtar Essence brewing… birthed on the Venus Return ~ 6th of June 2012

A powerful year 2012… a big time in history we find ourselves in 🙂   I’m going to try something new… I’ll  post photos from over the years here at Mahalia, and things I’ve written ~ journal entries, book writing etc.  Journey’s back to other times ❤

This one I wrote in my book writing place… I’m planning to write books.  So this is a first draft… feels good to try something new.  Well… these last few days, Pluto dallying with our Sun… more transformation.  I’ve had a lot of Pluto these last few years  🙂

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Yesterday’s power packed New Moon. I felt it coming, it felt strong. On Moon calendar it had New Moon at 0 degrees 1 min Pisces. Two days before it I became aware of its strength… then discovered it was an Aquarius New Moon at 29 degrees 59 minutes ~ and with the GVA call the previous morning, there appeared to be a touch of confusion about.

Well the last two days have certainly been action packed… that cross over point from Aquarius to Pisces, that 29 degree point of intensity, all that Neptune energy… no wonder a healing by air and water. Two cyclones cleansing Oz ~ Marcia crossing over Gladstone area; watching the live satellite image of Marcia as she approached Gladstone, she looked like the Mother, well and truly pissed, as she prepared to give Gladstone a battering. She reminds us where the limits are. She’s a mighty warrior.

Yesterday, the second Meridium Therapy with Neils: missed the morning bus back, so was in Kyogle until the later bus at three. Library visit was most productive, met a lovely woman, approached me and asked if I wrote in the NGT’s, she reads my articles. This happened last week in Kyogle as well, with another woman. Great acknowledgement. Also met Alana (women at op shop finding bears), lives at Green Pigeon, nice woman (looks like might have indigenous blood) again yesterday on way to my appointment. So couldn’t chat long, just a couple of words.

Library was good; borrowed some more books, had a cup of tea (a tea area set up by someone, Enga there from Care Connections ) so had long chat with woman, who asked about the NGT, she lives down past Cawongla, keeps goats and makes her own soap ~ she gifted me one, I chose patchuli… it’s beautiful, lovely and oily (like my favourites). That was a great get together, but not long after I began to feel really tired ~ like really tired, hard to keep moving about, and later waiting for the bus, I could hardly keep my head up. I did find a stray needle on my chest, was it still in my skin? Will check with Neils. But then long trip back on bus, so difficult to stay awake, bought myself some carob liquorice for the bus trip back, to give me some energy to stay upright.

Then back home, concerned about cyclone as had been expected to make its way down here, albietly much reduced. So online looking at weather sites, then FB, in between removing even more things off the verandah. Took glass table in the car shed; took all the pot plants off the deck onto the grass close to the edge of the deck; all the chimes off, pillows, little blue table, table, chairs and painting from the front verandah ~ all inside. Rocks and crystals, anything small. Cleared as much as I could… so a bit of heavy lifting, after already being excessively tired.

Was nearly 10pm (dst) when I ate, couldn’t eat much, stomach too sensitive. Was midnight by time I went to bed. Had a bit of a restless night, dreamt but can’t remember it. Today early on computer/phone checking cyclone, messages etc, watched quite a bit on TV. Everything I didn’t really need to do… ’cause now I’m totally exhausted. Unsteady on my feet and my left back shoulder is very tender, I must have pulled it moving things.

An early night would be good for me. Last few days have been huge. I was right… it was a super powerful New Moon (well it was a Super New Moon).

till next time ❤ ❤ ❤

how are you feeling?

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It’s been a big week  🙂   Certainly a big Solstice ….  understanding or foreseeing what’s going to happen is tricky.  I wrote about that in my Nimbin Good Times article which I sent off yesterday.  Bit late, but they kindly allowed me an extension 🙂  A great team over there at NGT, the best newspaper around, I reckon.

A lot has been moved around this week, the Solstice is a significant event.  What with our radiant Sun changing course, heading south to bring us warm days again.  Well, it’ll be a little while yet, winter has just begun.  I like winter.  Strange, as I was a beach girl in my early years… many Sundays spent at Bronte Beach in my formative years; fortunate I haven’t shriveled like a prune… good genes and a Gemini Ascendant helps I think.  I’m thankful for all the gifts.

The Solstice is known as a time of shift, of movement… a turning point, endings and new beginnings.  The Sun stops for a bit (not really), has a bit of a ponder, about his last six months journey… bringing his light and love to the folks in the north.  He’s very fair with his sharing, we all get a turn at basking in his brilliance.  Well, obviously we do all the time, otherwise we wouldn’t be here  🙂  Without the Sun there would be no life on Earth.  So he’s a pretty major player.

I like to acknowledge these shifting cycles, we’re all affected after all.  We can meander along, distracted with this and that, doing some work, making some money, putting food on the table, paying our rent or mortgage, watching TV, going to movies… enjoying the time we have on this magnificent planet.  While behind the scenes this whole process is happening.  Mother Nature doesn’t take sickies, we’d be in strife if she did.  She continues, the fine balance of supporting life, for us… so we can exist.

Yes I like to acknowledge these cycles, like to remember all that I’ve been given.  And I find when I stop, acknowledge and give thanks, magick happens, again and again.  All life is sentient… meaning it has awareness, it feels, it responds.  Just because we can’t see something, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist.  God, the things I’ve seen since being here in this magickal place; these experiences have certainly insisted that I trust myself.

I think that’s probably the biggest gift in my journey here at magickal Mahalia  🙂   There’s been so many gifts, and some steep learning curves too.  That year of forestry work around me, nearly killed me twice.  And boy did I experience the ancient wrath of Lilith, she certainly became real for me.  I felt her in the core of my being ~ a dark, blood-red, seething, bubbling cauldron of rage.  Yes it was that big.  I remember the day, sitting outside the Council building, I was furious;  I’d gone to issue my ‘complaint’, well you know how bureaucracy works, soooo frustrating.  This age of patriarchy has long had its day.  But it’s that boy thing, you know, they just won’t admit defeat.  They start flexing their muscles, revving up their testosterone, being a bloke, throwing around their weight… god almighty, this age can’t finish soon enough.  Look, I like ‘blokes’, I like men, I have a gorgeous son.  It’s the mindset, so deeply ingrained over these thousands (yes thousands) of years… they need to get the message and soon.  Their time has finished.

But amid all these yucky dregs of patriarchy, amazing opportunity awaits our attention.  Yes, it’s easy, and seems to be popular ~ to focus on what’s wrong; it’s okay to have awareness of it, no use denying it (we have enough people doing that already 😦 ).  As an energy worker (working with the non-physical aspects of the body) I know, whatever we concentrate on grows, whatever we give our attention to magnifies.  That’s been proven scientifically…. an object changes when it’s being observed.  Remember when I first heard that, I thought, well that throws a spanner in the works for lots of scientific data.  Sometimes us humans are a bit on the vague side.

The thing is you can’t change anything concerning another, we can only change ourself.  You can’t really change how another person thinks, they have to come to their own realizations of things.  And the most powerful way to communicate, connect with another human being, or any living thing… is through the heart.  Love really is the most powerful force around.

So big shifts has occurred this week.  I know I’ve experienced a lot.  I’ve felt incredible discomfort, agitation (I was feeling pretty ornery for a while), even some depression.  Then after a massage treatment, my body went into overdrive, accompanied by significant pain.  It’s been a week since the Solstice, and only now am I feeling some sense of balance within my being.

It’s been a very big Solstice; in Ortho-bionomy* they say ‘there is no change without movement’.  Things need to move to change.  What’s been your experience of this most significant event… in this great year of promise?  It really is time, to stand and be who you are… that’s the easiest and most wholesome path.  When a lot is transforming, shifting and changing, we need to be solidly anchored in our own being.

We all came with special gifts, we all have genius, we are all important in the big scheme of things.  It’s time to know who you are, do what you came to Earth to do.  The messages are loud and clear…. and the support is there.  During these dark times of Kali Yuga so much opportunity exists.  We need to open our eyes, see with our heart, allow our true intelligence a voice.  It really is an amazing time to be alive.

lotsa luv marilyn ❤

Happy Solstice

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Happy Solstice 🙂 ❤

‘The solstice is a turning point, symbolic of endings and new beginnings, and with Mars so close to the sun, your intentions are magnified. Your thoughts and desires literally have wings. Let them fly!’   Kim Falconer

We came together again, here at Mahalia… a Sacred Space.  It’s amazing to experience the growth of another… and your growth in their reflection.  Such a special time when souls sisters come together.  This is the time of the Sacred Feminine… she’s here ~ I saw her arrive 🙂

So incredible to be a part of growth and evolution… of love and caring.  We are the creators of our new world… we have all we need.  Venus is Leo… our time to shine, shine brightly ♥  And she’s spending quite some time with Leo this time around… time to get out those soft cloths, and polish and polish to a gleam.  It’s time for you to shine 🙂

A most beautiful reminder from my dear friend Jane… Jane is the one who does those amazing Sand Plays.  I experienced a Sand Play session with Jane, a few years back now.  I still can recall the impressive way in which Jane held the space… it was a magick session.  I can highly recommend her.  Anyway, I can’t remember her exact words, but it was becoming who you’re striving for now… be it.  It really resonated powerfully with me.  I think that’s the gift, the blessing of the Solstice, and of course Venus… it really is time to be who you are.  If feels good too.

So very Happy Solstice everyone… and lotsa luv to you ~ marilyn  ❤

(ps… and it’s our growth and coming into our self… which is the healing)

some pics from the weekend  ❤

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and I also learnt… strength comes with growth 🙂 We need to use our voice.  We need to stand firm within our self, feet grounded to the Earth, head with our Celestial friends.  This creation is a masterpiece … it continues to blow me away.  Such gratitude for being given the gift of life, to be here on Earth, to feel love, see beauty, to feel the arms of Life around you.  I’m happy I’m here… Happy Solstice, with love from me ❤