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another sensational sunset at Mahalia

“Pay attention right now to what is calling for your attention.  As our intentions come from a higher place, all that is not in alignment will feel louder, heavier and harder to bear . .  until confronted.  You can be sure that whatever is feeling loud and heavy to you now . . . is the dust you need to see. . . the dust is in direct response to the intentions you have put out.”  Dana Mrkich

OK. . . so I’ve been feeling anger again  . . . resentment and anger . . . and there’s often a convenient target!

Anger . . . well, first there’s the stored/unexpressed stuff from years before. . . . the times when you were cut-off, cut short . . . and had no say.  And then there’s the current ‘things’ that somehow conveniently spark it off!

Well the early stuff . . . like getting Polio…  I remember a session I had with my Healer/Therapist at the time . . . my Reiki teacher.  We ‘went back’ as I’m sometimes apt to do in those situations, Regression, I think it’s called . . . revisiting old places and situations.  She was trying to connect with me, speak to me . . . I was about 3yrs old, but I was totally pissed off and I didn’t want to know her . . . I wasn’t engaging.  Now this woman was no light weight when it came to these things . . . but no way was I going to let her near me.  I remember she felt quite surprised by the interaction.  Obviously my Mars in Scorpio was in full expression.

Yes, I was totally pissed off getting Polio . . . gone was my fun and games . . . exchanged for the dreaded life surrounded by ghastly hospital walls . . dreadfully harsh sounds, disconnected people, busy, busy, busy . . . emotional starvation. . . . and fear and overwhelm,  there was plenty of that.  And it wasn’t the kids . . . the confusion reigned supreme in the folk who were attending us.  Overwhelm, fear and frustration . . . what a download to begin life with.  But I’m sure there’s a purpose . . . .

They were overwhelmed and fearful ’cause they didn’t really know how to handle the situation . . .  this epidemic . . . that was clear to me . ..  the energy spoke volumes . . . we had to live in it.  Why such early schooling. . . I guess there’s always a reason.

So first I lose my fun and games . . . and then have to contend with this inhospitable place.  Being experimented on . . . isn’t that what they do?  They don’t really know . . . so they keep trying all these things . . . with little regard as to how they may feel.

Yes I felt pissed . . . really pissed.  I was only trying to help. . . and look what happened!  Now self-judgement . . . a world of new learning.

All alone inside myself . . . observing, seeing, feeling helpless.  They know so little, experiments we’ve become. . . I’m little, my voice doesn’t carry any command.  It frustrates me . . . I feel angry.

So yes, up it comes in the present . . .  it’s my anger rising . . . causing all kind of mayhem in my liver.  Yes it’s ignited. .  but  I have no power over anyone else . . . I only have power over myself.  Well . . . there is other stuff/power, but we’ll leave it at that . . . . .

But something has changed since I was 3yrs old marilyn . . . I’m now a grown, mature (???) woman . .  and I do have a voice that can be heard.

My honouring needs to begin with myself . . . my kindness and care . . . my wisdom and knowing.  It’s not what we’re taught, this self-love and respect . . . but something we learn as we walk along the path.  Without ourself . . . nothing, no-one exists.

We’ve come a long way. . . in our understanding of things . . .  these last few years . . . but these need to be experienced as real. . . not just quotes with a nice picture . . . on your FB page.

Let go of the fear . . .it has no place . . . people either accept you as you are . . . or they don’t . . . we don’t win anything  . . . with deceit.

‘Melting the wall of fear’. . . suggested to me from a friend . . . well, fear is only part of it . . . the other . . . a mighty pissed-off-ness.

Angry at them. . . ‘why are they as they are’ . . .why can’t things be different . .  kinder, warmer. . . more love around.  My dear Mum had a Leo Moon, so deliciously warm and gorgeously generous.  She understood me well, I was her first child . . . we shared many traits . . . we came from the same line.  Yes, home wasn’t ideal . .  there were problems there . . . all hidden behind closed doors . . . but people did see.

I went from her warmth and knowing . . . her protection, her love and caring . . . into a very strange world . .  of fear and tension, emotional starvation, coldness, harsh sounds . . . scary experiments…  Yes, I was pissed.

Little gorgeous marilyn . . . amongst the many gifts she had . . . she had her Mars in Scorpio.  They don’t come much stronger than this . . . Mars, that is.  Both Gandhi and Martin Luther King, both had their Mars in Scorpio . . . among other notable luminaries.

Mars in Scorpio fights to the death . . . a strength of will, not many would dare to approach.  A depth of feeling that feeds powerful desires . . . a dedication to the cause . . . that would keep many breathless.  It’s a powerful Mars, its roots are deep . . . it’s not interested in trivialities, it wants the truth.  It’s power of focus is intense indeed . . . once ignited. . . it sets off energy . . . directly to the target.  It’s very desires begin to create changes in the ethers.  It’s a powerful Mars . . . it works from the deepest primal energy.

The thing with Mars . . . ’cause it’s energy is action and movement. . . whether physical, mental, emotional or metaphysical. . . is when movement is thwarted, stopped in stream. . . it begins to build . . . until it needs some release . . . built up energy releases with a bang!  Yes, Mars is energy . . .raw, undiluted . .  the traditional ruler of Scorpio, the modern ruler of Aries.

We’re all created so beautifully unique . . . and only I . . . like you and you and you . . .can be who I am.

Energy needs to flow . . . . .

lotsa luv

marilynxxx

I don’t know much . . . except what I hear. . . in the moment…  My knowing comes only in the present.

Like a tightly bound bud. . .  loosening its hold . . .  letting go, surrendering . . . to the next stage of growth.

We’re created to know . . . it’s instinctive, it’s natural . . . like a fog in the valley. . . it rises . . .  all things then are clearer.

We’re so much more than we know . . . understand. . .  or could . . . even imagine…  We’re both Earth and Star matter. . .  with a seed of conscious Divinity.

I’ve seen this seed. . .  it was more like a flame. . .  I saw it inside them. . .  when I first came.

My memory of ‘before’ still present but fading . . . into another world . . . so strange and foreign.

But there was a purpose . . .  a significant focus.

It was all about Love . . .  it always has been…   There is no purpose. . .  higher or greater.

We travelled thru time . . . thru space . . . to be together…  Wherever Love goes . . . we have no choice . . . but to follow.

You see . . . we’re bound in unity . . . in a Love that’s Eternal . . . time and space . . . . is only an illusion.

A Longing so deep . . . so full . . . so complete . . . to be with the Love . . . that created my existence…  An eternal longing lives inside me.

 

marilynxxxx

 

Sent off my article for the January 2013 edition of The Nimbin Good Times yesterday. . .  titled  ‘2013… coming from my strength’ . . . you can read their great paper on their website. . .www.thenimbingoodtimes.com . .. .  takes a few days till new edition is uploaded.  I’ve been thinking, as I’m apt to do, about ‘coming from my strength’ for some days now.  So being on the cusp of 2013 . . . a very strong Full Moon in Cancer today . . . which is bound to stir up some emotion . . . and ‘past’ memories . . . I’m focusing on my strength . . . . my feelings . . . my needs.  We’re not happy chappies when our needs are not being met!!

As humans we’re bound together in the one primordial energy . . . but with Bodies entombed in our own skin and flesh . . . our own memories, our own unique process. . .  and our own path to tread, our own lessons to learn.  Kindness, Love, Compassion and Caring. . .  go a long way in making our journeys a joy to experience, and for some. . . a reason for living.

I love warmth, kindness and caring . . . a warm welcoming spirit helps me feel appreciated.  Getting in touch with my needs . . . once again . . . oh, how easy to forget.  Of course my ‘feelings’ are always around . . . being Kinesthetic, Empathic, Intuitive. . . with a psychic inheritance . . . . etc etc etc . . . my body feels like one big Feeling Machine.   But then I jump to my familiar analytical process . . . to make sense of it all . . . not always a successful route, but it can be helpful if it leads me in the right direction . . . we have a mind/brain for a reason . . . it’s not always the boggy man!

So once again getting in touch with my Needs . . . they are after all . . . the basis of all operations here.  I’m sure this brilliant Full Moon in Cancer is helping heaps.  It’s not always easy for humans to identify their needs . . . we tend to focus more on behaviour, reacting to outcomes.  But there’s always a reason we feel as we do . . . . it’s been a life long lesson, that one, for me.  Our feelings are connected to our needs . . . they’re the messengers, like our emotions (and often they come tied together . . . ‘specially for us girls. . . .).  When our needs are not being met . . . we’re being told . . . we just  need to become more familiar with the language . . . .AND have the courage . . . . to speak UP!

We are worthy. . . to have our needs met . . . well, it’s not really an option . . . it’s a necessity . . . if we want to be healthy, wholesome, functional human beings.  ‘Cause when they’re not . . . all hell breaks loose . . . we definitely then don’t come from our strength.

On the Macro . . . . I see 2013 as the Year of Peace . . .  on the micro . . . I’ll be coming from my strength.  Oh oh . . . that means speaking up!  But. . . . and a big but . . . in the kindest, caring, loving, respecting way.  It’s an expression after all . . .  not a direction.  It’s building . . . not destroying.  It’s acknowledging . . . not denying . . ..  it’s caring . . . it’s coming from my strength.

So when those feelings come up. . .  which they’re bound to over the next couple of days . . . sit for a moment . . . zoom into your internal world go a little deeper . . . descend with loving kindness, gentleness and sacredness.  Ask to be taken to your Chamber of Needs . . . gently respect the environment you’re in . . . you’re the most amazing Being this world has known . . . you’re born from the Sacred . . . you’ve never left, it’s where you reside.  The door to the Chamber of Needs opens slowly . . . a shining, Golden Light immediately envelopes you.  And there you sit . . . in the centre of this brilliance . . . . yes Sacred One . . . your needs are the most natural part of you . . . they are a part of who you are . . . and they need to be fed . . . just as your Body needs this precious Breath.

May 2013 be a year of Strength for you. . . recognising yourself . . . and shining so brightly . . . that only the strong and loving, kind and gentle . . . are attracted to you.  We can only ‘attract’ . . . we cannot pursue . . . .

lots and lots and lots of gorgeous, brilliant Love, Love, Love . . . to you . . . remember, you are precious, precious, precious . . . beyond words.

lotsa luv

marilynxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I feel better than yesterday. . . Body has settled a bit more . . . lots of sleep last night (madam (fury white bundle) in the laundry) . . . it’s raining outside, it’s light . . . no sun yet . . . the birds are serenading . . . . a new day has begun.  The sweet sound of rain falling . . . caressing and nurturing all it touches. . .  the ground drinking and drinking.  Well, it seems to have cleared my Auric field as well . . .

Yesterday wasn’t an easy day . . . in many ways . . . we have those sometimes . . . being human and all.  But boy, am I ever grateful . . . to truly appreciate the fact . . . that I’m alive.  ‘Cause one day I will not be . . . thankfully we don’t know when . . . and I guess we all hope it will be some time long in the future . . . well, the future just becomes shorter and shorter.  But as the future gets shorter and shorter. . . the past becomes longer and longer . . . memories of all those so incredibly special moments . . . that we got to experience living. . . . we are so incredibly fortunate.

Like the sky .  . being more in touch with those ‘subtle impressions’ now . . .  I can feel some water needs releasing from me.  Interesting how these bodies work . . . fascinating really . . . such a miraculous creation.  Being a Miss Virgo with a Capricorn Moon . . .  and Gemini on the Ascendant . . . emotions don’t often get a look in . . . well at least not on the surface.  Far to busy creating magick . . . to allow interference from those pesky irritations.  But as I mentioned yesterday . . . emotions are messengers . . . and it seems us girls have a stronger connection to them too.  I’m really seeing how powerful they are.  And how they need to be listened to . . . and released.  Bottled emotions. . .  not good . . . we need to consider our Body.  Like I said . .  they’re powerful Energy charges . . . super charged at times . . .They are for a reason . .  ’cause they’re trying to get our attention . . . move, move, move . . . they say . . .we need to be familiar with their language.

What I’ve been experiencing. . . since beginning this recent journey . . . 13th day now . . . and I haven’t always been good; is that relationships are our major learning tool.  Now I’m not talking about just the one with the capital R . . . no . . . all connections . . . with everything, human and otherwise . . . is a relationship.  I know I often hesitate using the word. . . ’cause it’s often so loaded . . . often thought to mean . .  romantic relationships etc.  But no . . . it’s every single thing we’ve connected to . .  over our entire life. . . . and it’s these . . . that have shaped our psyche. . . .and our physical structure.

I like to look at cycles . . . the current influence of everything . . . especially the natural world.  It’s always been an interest of mine.  So as I began to focus on this current intention of mine. . . . Healing Myself . . . I looked back over the last few months . . . all the planetary cycles . . . the eclipses etc . . . as they often are . . . they were very revealing.  Yep, I was back on the operating table.  Maybe I haven’t left it these last couple of years . . . . but it became very clear to me . . . the powerful influence of ‘relationship’ . . .My internal structure had been formed by these . . . scary and fascinating at the same time.

I’m reading this good book at present . . . Rewire Your Brain for Love . . . by Marsha Lucas PhD . . . she’s easy to read, has a cute style . . . in amongst all the anatomical descriptions of the brain.  She’s a Neuropsychologist and Psychotherapist . . . with a geeky (her own description) fascination for neuroscience . . . the way the brain is moulded and shaped . .  by our experiences.  . .  our relationships with the world around us.

Well. . . as mentioned often . . .I’m more of an Energy girl . . . it’s pretty fascinating to read what actually happens in the physical/electrical structure . . . but I suppose . . . it’s energy that allows everything to exist . . . everything is energy after all.

So . . . all my bits and pieces inside . . . have been structured and formed by what’s happened in my life so far . . . I can accept that . . .but we’re creators . . . not victims . . . and we have choice . . . intention . . . focus . . . . and Grace.  We can ‘rewire our brains’ . . . as Martha says.

But I guess what I’m seeing. . . is that when there’s a real intention to heal . . . all the ‘underlying’ energy . . . often blocked . . . begins to loosen . . . and rise to the surface.  It needs to be released.  Our bodies have been doing a stirling job . . . restricted as they have been  . . . by all that blocked, diseased, built up energy. . .  my Pranic Healing training here . . .

Yes. . . . it may be all a bit serious . . . for Boxing Day . . . but to be honest, it doesn’t hold much meaning to me.  I’d be the first to celebrate real things . . . but not just ’cause someone tells me too . . . . the little rebel raising her head.

So hope your holiday time is super enjoyable. . . and you get to share real feeling with loved ones and family.  I had my wonderful family time a few weeks ago . . .  still savouring that.  Love really is  . . . .all that matters.

Enjoy every moment. . . you get. . . to breath . . . and appreciate . . . it’s more precious than we’ll ever really understand

lotsa luv. . . .  marilynxxxxxx

down in Faerie Gully

 

My journal entry for today (and my first book published next year . . .)

Well. . . . it’s Christmas morning . . . everything around me is the same . . . the ‘natural’ world operating as usual . . . .it’s not a day of significance in their diary.  There are those days thou . . .you can feel the shift . . . the movement of the natural world . . . when something significant occurs.  But man-made (‘scuse politically incorrect) dates just simply go by unnoticed . . .now the day of the Solstice . . . that was different.  I could feel the energy, it was pulsing . . . our great Fire ball in the sky. . . stopped for a moment . . . to change his focus.  Well in the ‘real’ world it’s the Earth that shifts . . . not the Sun . .  but whoever, which one . . . we get to feel it.

I’m incredibly tired today . . . did too much yesterday . .  and didn’t do enough of the things I’d promised.  Big times for me . . . like never before.  I’ve never had this degree of incapacitation before.  Obviously brought about by the fall . .  and then earlier the sprained ankle. . .’they’ say, these things happen.  And not much therapy to counteract the challenges.

Kooka’s think that’s funny . . . or they’re just confirming my awareness.

You see I have this habit. . . of wanting to do things.  It’s how I’ve always been. . . for as long as I remember.  I have a love of Life. . .  a love of creating . . . a love of immersing myself. . .  in the magick.

Went down to the Gully yesterday morning. . . to have a swim in the dam . . .but I see clearly now, that I was already aware of my fatigue.  ‘Cause I hesitated for a moment before going over to the dam, my body just wanting to sit under the tree.  I knew . . . but I overrode my more subtle impressions.  It seems I have to live there now . . . in those subtle impressions.  There will be gifts there of course . . . a new way of living.

Finer and finer and finer . . . it becomes . . . death to the old ways . . . birthing of the new.  Now I reckon we’re all going thru that right now . . . all in different ways . . .unique to us.  It’s like the old way doesn’t work anymore . . . it’s done and dusted.  But only each one of us . . . knows what new way we need to follow.

So into the dam . . . I know I was pushing . . .big, big, big mistake . . . no pushing allowed now.  But I did get to lie down under the Faerie Trees after my swim (8 laps . . . and it’s a big dam . . . am I silly or what!!!) . . protected by the numerous ants in the grass . . . by my beautiful mauve, rayon sarong.  I look up to the sky. . . thru the branches and leaves . . . it’s difficult to describe how magickal it is there, how it feels.  I am incredibly fortunate. . .to be able to experience what I do . . . during these critical times.

‘Cause it seems lots are in crisis . . . including my body. . . the vision of ‘wellness’ so important to hold steady.

‘Leave no room for doubt in your mind’. . .  my dearest, dearest friend reminds me often.  I have been a Doubting Thomas. . .  in fact I gave myself that name.  Amazing things would happen to me . . . and I would start off by saying . . ‘I don’t know whether its my mind or not’.  I’ve travelled many miles since then . . . thank god.  But there’s still areas when this insidious Doubt raises its most unattractive face . . . sometimes I get hoodwinked . . . then I have to untangle myself . . . to get out of its web . . . so sticky it’s tentacles.

Anyway. . . vegie garden in need of attention . . .  didn’t do much . . . but a lot more walking than obviously allocated.  So on my back last night, just into bed . . . my body not happy . . .I’m sorry, I say . . .I’ll take better care of you tomorrow. . . I promise.

You see . . . what I’ve intended . . . I’ve never done before . . .  never, ever . . . in my entire life. . . ‘3 month intensive of resting, healing, nutrition and regenerating’.  Allowing nothing in my life that doesn’t uplift me.  I’ve never been ruthless before . . .but we’re talking about my life now . . . the rules have changed. These times come when we have very few choices.

I decided after a few weeks of quite concerning body symptoms . . . that I was going to heal myself of Post Polio.  Well   . . . as I’ve mentioned before. . . I’m not big on labels . . . and certainly not modern medicine’s analysis of the body.  But they were words that held some relevance . . . but then I added . . .’releasing the blockages . . . created by the energy . . . that birthed the environment . . . in which the ‘virus’ was attracted.

I’m an Energy focused girl . . . it’s always been my ‘thing’. . . much more interested in what lies behind the physical form.  I’ve been this way for as long as I remember . . . I started looking when I was only young . . . looking at symbols . . . and the meanings of certain behaviours.

So I’m Healing myself . . . I think it was the 14th of December I birthed my intention . . . it’s now the 25th . . .I’ve both moved forward and backward.  But I see ‘backward’ movement is just tied to old habits . . . repetitive thoughts . . . ways of doing.  I did say I was a doer . . . well Virgo and Capricorn . . . and both my parents rarely stopped . . . work, work, work . . . keep ourselves distracted from this precious moment called ‘Now’ . . . .god . . . who knows what might manifest!

I believe  . . .  well, I experience . . .that emotions are at the root of most diseases.  Emotions are powerful energy charges . . . they reverberate thru our bodies . . . possibly causing all kinds of carnage.  They’re messengers . . . created in this incredibly sophisticated, simple, intelligent Body . . . they translate our responses to the environment around us . . . . creating our very cellular structure.

They can become distorted . . . when certain emotions carry that extra charge . . . memories in the body . . . from times before.  But overall they’re not too far off the mark . . . they tell us how we’re feeling about what’s going on.  So we get to move our body away from harm.

So not much movement today for me . . . . I’m Healing . . . I’m Healing . . . I’m Healing myself.

marilynxxxxxxx

Well it’s Christmas Day . . . feels like any other.  It’s 5.25am . . . I’m outside with the morning. . . drinking Chai.. . . . with Soy and honey of course.  I got to sleep in till 4.45am . . . well, her Highness didn’t get in last night till 1am . . . and of course, guess who had to get up and let her in!!

So instead of 3.45am . . .  my white fury, affectionate buddy nuzzling into my face . . . . it was an hour later. . . . that must have been her Christmas gift to me.  I’m thankful for small mercies . . . . .

It’s light. . . Sun not visible yet . . . it’s cool, deliciously cool.  So fresh and new . . . it’s a brand new day.

I’m celebrating being alive . . . having a body. . . that works, well, most of the time.  A mind that can create all sorts of wonderful things.  A Heart that beats . . . synchronized with The Love.  Ears that can hear . . . the magickal chirping of the birds.  Skin that can sense . . . the slightest change in the air . . . Emotions that alert me to where I’ve wandered.

A deep fascination . . . for everything living.

As I sit on my weathered grey, uncovered deck . . . I join with Life . . . our Energies mingle.  She moves into me .  . I go willingly to her . . . like a child, a fascination that never seems to dim.

The grass so green . . . after all the rain gifts.  Air sparkles with enthusiasm . . . and delightful vigour.  Manifest Life moves along so gently . . . following the script that they were given.

What is our Script?  Us human beings. . . . living in a world of multiple choices.

A Genie’s Lamp . . . we think we have . . . . rub, rub, rub . . . look, I’ve fulfilled my desire.  But what is the desire that tugs at our core . . . the longing, the attraction, the need . . .  for more.

It’s Christmas Day. . . . whatever that means.  Life seems beyond such petty labels.  But we humans love to believe . . . in something miraculous . . . Joy and Love . . . Giving and Receiving.

All is the same in my world today . . . . Life is celebrating . . . and I am alive to witness it . . . the greatest Gift . . . .THANK YOU!!

May your every moment be Joyous . . . filled to the brim . . . with the Divine Essence.

Last night here . . . . .

Lotsa Luv. . . .  marilynxxxxxxx

The last post Nov 12th . . . Saturn had begun his journey thru Scorpio . . .  and the Scorpio Eclipse was just around the corner.  A lot’s happened during then and now . . . and as always . . . it involved my body, which of course always includes . . . my mental/emotional/psychic . . . and all the ‘experience’ that contributes.  We have many layers.  My beautiful Moon in the 8th house . . .”a NEED to understand the cycles of Life and the metaphysical nature of the world”. . . .yes.   More about that later . . . it’s just good to be back to writing my blog.

But Today . . . . . yesterday we experienced the most magnificent rain gifts . . . this morning everything so vibrant with Life Energy . . . . renewed, refreshed and ready for new growth. . . no such thing as a coincidence . . .

the air so clear

fresh

and new

the sounds of Life

the ’empty’ space

creates Life anew

the fullness

the emptiness

the ending

the beginning

the being

the experiencing

the acceptance

the filling

the Love

the Caring

the Honouring

the acceptance

the absorbing

the releasing

the understanding

the magick

Life . . . . once again . . .renewed. . .  for living . . . and being . . . . .THANK YOU

 

Wet grass

and my feet

meet

such enjoyment

feels so good

garden sparkles

Prana plentiful

birds singing

Life exquisite

the Giver . . . . unimaginable

‘Just receive

my precious girl

this is all for you

to cherish’

 

marilynxxxxx

 

 

It all began . . . this story . . . this morning.  I started thinking about my current feelings (in a certain area, that’s as much as I’ll reveal) . .  . how different they were from times previous.  On the surface, they may appear similar (well they don’t actually) . . . but their foundation is so different.  I started thinking about ‘obsession’.  I recognised its intrusions into my life.  Anyway this got me started on Scorpio . . . doesn’t take much to start me.  Then with the pen securely held between my thumb and forefinger, a blank page . . . and my channels open . . . the words start flowing.  I really do love writing . . . ’cause it’s not just the words on the page . . . it’s the experience.  You see, I get to experience what I’m writing.  That’s so neat!  So many ‘ah ha’ moments.

Mr Scorpio is quite present in my chart (Astrological Natal Chart) . . . so his influence hasn’t gone unnoticed.  Scorpio’s not that much interested with the surface goings on . . . . he likes to get to the juicy bits.  He has a wicked sense of humour . . . and is not afraid of bringing up taboo subjects.  After all that’s his territory.  Nothing taboo about them to him.  He lives in the Underworld . . . you know the one . . . kept tightly locked behind a steel door . . . locked securely, sound proof walls . . . no light . . . etc etc.  Black and Red. . . conjure up any images . . . ?

Pluto rules Scorpio . . . the Underworld God who brings the blessing of transformation.  He’s not light . . . not by any stretch . . . and he can be heavy-handed.  But he’s loyal to the core . . . he walks his talk ..  . and you’ll never be the same . . . once you meet him . . . intimately . . . of course!! He demands a closeness. .  . that may at first seem uncomfortable.  But there’s no escaping him . . . once he has his sights set on you. . .  you’ve had it (with the past) . . . may as well surrender.  I didn’t say it was going to be easy.

Scorpio’s energy is very healing  . . . he’s the Master Physician.  His x-ray vision allows him to spot the ‘disease’ immediately.  His hands . . . used with such precision and knowledge . . . knowing how to cut out. . .  the festering tissue.  He understands the Psyche . . . he’s also a Master in this field . . . he knows, with surety . . . how the psyche directs the body.

He’s very gifted, our Scorpio friend.  A great friend to have around . . . when delicate operations are needed.  He won’t pander to your Ego . . . or whisper sweet nothings in your ear.  He won’t put you to bed and make you tea and scones (you need Cancer for that).  He won’t beat around the bush . . . he’ll come right to the point.  I love his honesty and his direct approach.

He can simmer . . . oh yes . . . when something is rubbing him the wrong way.  He can be revengeful . . . he has a powerful resource of energy (best not to ignite it).  He is Pluto the destroyer . . . and the bringer of new life.

He is our friend . . . but the journey with him may not always be easy.  But you can wear your battle scars with pride . . . and acceptance.  You’ve paid your dues . . . and now have a right . . . to stand up and be accepted.  The fire has burnt thru you . . . no sickness remains . . . he’s the destroyer of all . . . that’s dead and decayed . ..  rotten and putrid.

He has the guts . . . to not only face this stinking, rotten pile of baggage . . . but walk right into the middle . . . and start cleaning it up.  He’s a Warrior . . . he’s a Physician . . . a man with x-ray vision . . . he’s a smouldering Lover, he can be jealous and possessive.  It’s because he gives his whole Heart . . . the depths of his being.  And he accepts equal return . . . not good to invite his fury.

So it’s healing time . . . down to the depths . . . take this opportunity . . . it really is a blessing.  Leave the surface for a while . . . a journey is required . . . down, down, down . . . . down to the centre. . . the ground floor of your being.  It’s dark, it’s smokey . . . it’s red with blood . . . it’s intense, the energy hits you . . . as soon as you walk in.  You’ve been invited to visit the Underworld . . . down to Hades domain . . . he’s been patiently waiting . . . for your arrival.

You say you’re a little hesitant . . . not sure you’re ready to go there.  Well, when you hear the raspy-throated call . . . you have no choice, you will go there . . . willingly . . . or without your agreement.

You see Healing begins at the deepest level . . .  of all you carry within you.  The storage space where you hide your ‘unpleasantries’ . . . the things that are socially unacceptable.  Hades doesn’t give a poop . . . he’s not governed by temporary niceties.  He’s been around for a long, long time . . . he knows the territory thoroughly.

So here we sit on the Eve of the Eclipse . . . this mighty Super New Moon in Scorpio.

Now you have the choice . . . to let go . . . or hold on . .  I can tell you what will be the easiest.  But, I know . . . you need to work it out for yourself.

Neptune goes Direct today . . . jump on his wave and let him carry you to the depths .  . he’ll make it a little easier . .  at least you’ve got the transport sorted . . . see, all’s taken care of.

Enjoy yourself . . . . and ALLOW the HEALING to happen.

lotsa luv

marilynxxxx

Rain so plentiful – replenishing all

I have one planetary sensitive cat . . . my dear feline companion, we’ve had quite a journey.  Little Miss Scorpio with big Miss Virgo . . . yes, we’ve had some ‘moments’ . . . no use denying.  But her loyalty and her love has never faltered . . . she’s accepted me warts and all . . . and continues to love me . . . her presence in my life . . . is no accident.  Issues of control and authority. . . not always so easy . . . many sides of myself she magnified for me.  And I’m still only learning. . . about her amazing healing abilities.

Planetary sensitive?  We have a household full of that . . . when the planets start moving. . . so do we.  Took me ages to recognise the basis of her skittish behaviour . . . tearing around the house, no way of settling.  From window to window . . . meowing at the door . . .’no, you’re not going out . . . I’m going to bed (and I have the final say!!!).  Yes, we have our moments.  When she’s so energetically jittery . . . well, honestly, it drives me nuts . . . ‘sit, be quiet . . . get into your bed’ .  She knows me enough now . . that she ‘appears’ to behave . . . that is till I’m out of the room . . .  she is a Scorpio. . . . after all.

Ahhh the Eclipse . . . it finally dawned . . . that’s why she’s all over the place . . . and not any old Eclipse . . .  her very own one . . . in Scorpio.  Well now I understand the reason . . . but still she’s had a few nights in the laundry . . . I have to sleep!!!

So even from the laundry I can hear my alarm . . . Snowie calling . . . it’s 4.25am.  She’s a bugger . . .

But I’m up . .  I’m like a kid at a fair . . . it’s another day . . . and the mornings are my favourite.  ‘Cause you can really feel the magick . ..  it’s vibration is strong . . . a birthing energy . . . a brand new day.  When you think . . . that no moment . . . will ever be repeated .  . how do we honour every moment that passes.  And it’s not just any moment . . . it comes with Life energy . . . totally full . . . completely original.  And we get to experience . . . how many in our Life?  No wonder I get excited when a new day arrives.

Out in the morning . . . the most incredible majesty . . . Life is happening . . . all around me.  I’m so incredibly fortunate.  Today the rain . . . more beautiful rain . . . bringing moisture to parched dry soil . . .filling the reservoirs for times ahead.

A flock of Ibis . . . now another. . .  and another . . .now there are many joining together,  circling in the sky  . . . right in front of me, caught up in the magick. . . .the magick of the morning.  Then over the trees . . . to welcome another lover of the morning.

Grey clouds moving from the South .  . . heading North . . . sharing their load with others waiting.  Trust so important, as we journey along this Life Path . . and understanding that all is provided.  Nothing has been left out . . . not one thing omitted.

The glorious kaleidoscope of Loving and Giving.  Tears rise, my brain steps back . . . allowing the Heart to relish this wonder.  Clouds moving swiftly, they know where they’re heading . . . distributing moisture to dry and parched gardens . . . bringing the sparkle that only moisture can contribute.  This Earth is a garden . . .of immense proportions . . . filled with so much Beauty, Love and Kindness.  All grow to share, to provide, to shelter.  All come forth . . .to offer their wisdom.

The doorway may seem invisible at times . . . the passage between the real and imagined.  We’ve become confused with what we think is real .. . in steel and concrete . . . nothing can grow.  Yes, all has it’s purpose, when used with awareness . . .providing support and structure . ..  to assist us on our journey.

We come into this world small yet so brave . .  and with so much wisdom, we carry from before.  We venture out . .  into this foreign land, protected by Love . .  a chord, connected to the real.  But as time moves on . . . we forget lots of things, our focus redirected into imaginary worlds.

Brand new yellow/green leaves. . . on the beautiful Paperbark . . .glisten with raindrops, moving gently with the wind.  They’re dancing . . .moving to the rhythm.  The rhythm of Life . . . can you feel it . . . can you see it?  Can you feel Mother Gaia supporting your existence.  Can you feel her love . . . such gentle fingers . . . caressing your face . . . as the breath enters your body.

You were given the greatest gift .  . available in this entire Universe.  You were given Life . .  and a home on this precious Earth . . .there is no greater miracle.

I love so deeply, so fully . . . so enchanted . . . by all the Magick . . . that supports my existence.  I wish I could really describe . . . in words . . . what it’s like.  But even beautiful words . . . have their limitations.  But it’s never the words, oh yes, they can be clever . . .but it’s the Heart . . .that directs the hand . . . to find the pen and paper.

And then safely ensconced between thumb and forefinger . . the Heart has the stage . . .and boy is she ready.

Immerse yourself in the magick of your existence . . . you are Loved . . . beyond, beyond, beyond . . . recognition.

A brief visit from the Sun on the fresh new leaves

lotsa luv

marilynxxxx

  this morning at Mahalia –  the rain’s come

 

It’s raining . . . . that’s big news in these parts . . . having moved into a dry spell.  We were all calling on the Rain God. . .  and he answered!  I knew he would . . . I trusted he’d come . . . I made sure I gave thanks, with my request . .  and then with full trust I waited . . . he arrived with such brilliance.  Strong, heavy, penetrating rain . . . the dry earth drinking, drinking and drinking . . . the frog’s exuberant chorus filled the early evening presence . . . making whoopy . . . for lots of gorgeous baby tadpoles.  So nice to have Frog energy.  The garden is radiant . . . all are smiling . . . insects, birds and the tiniest of tiny creatures . . . it’s easy to feel their jubilant joyfullness.  They too, trust the Rain God will come . . . they wait patiently for his arrival.

Neptune . . . Emperor of the Oceans . . . guardian of our feeling nature . . . is presently radiating strength and fullness.  At 6 hr 52 mins 38 seconds today (AEDST) . . .  that’s NSW here in Oz land . . . . Neptune finishes his retrograde travels and stands still for a while, very still . . . re-orienting himself to forward movement. This action intensifies a planet’s energy . . . as you could imagine . . . a massive ball of energy and matter stopping, standing still . . . all that energy for movement contained in one space . . . it’s very strong . . . and influences us considerably.  He’ll stay in this space for  2 days . . . and then at 6 hr 52 mins 38 sec (yes exactly the same time!! What’s the chances of that!!) on the 12th he begins his new forward journey.

Neptune rules our Feeling nature . . . he also resides over the Lands of Magickal Wonder . . . the Secret Gardens . . . Life behind the curtain.  He  tells the best stories.  He holds the gift of Healing . . . by putting us in touch with our feelings.  Feelings could be big these next few days . . . listen to them . . . they’re trying to get your attention.  Our feelings are a barometer . . . to what’s happening with us . . . it’s really best not to ignore them.  What you feel needs validation, acceptance . . . and honouring.  The Body is a Divine Creation.

All illness begins in our energetic fields . . . created from our Feelings, our Emotions . . . our Energy Bodies.  We can understand right there, what needs addressing.  We ignore these at our peril.  If the Life Energy cannot get our attention thru our Feelings and Emotions . . . it will travel further into our denser field . . . the Body.  Here it will speak very loudly . . . we don’t want that . . . best to listen when the volume is much lower.

We create our illness and disease . . . and we can also heal it.

This weekend is a blessed opportunity . . . to get in touch with our feelings . . . where in our body do we feel them . . . what are they trying to tell me . . . don’t ignore them.

We’re being given an incredible opportunity . . . swirling in the midst of this Scorpionic Eclipse . . . New Moon time . . . and Neptune.  Our beloved Neptune . . . the great Healer. . . . shining his full vibrational force upon us.  These are significant times . . . an amazing time. . . of rebirth and total transformation.  We are so very fortunate to be here . . . at this time . . . we will see miracles occurring.  They are already happening.

This moment of time is new . . . brand new . . . untouched by anything before or after . .  . and in this moment. . .we can experience the miracle of Life. . . . vibrating thru our Body . . . . cocooning us, surrounding us. . . in a myriad of life forms.  We are alive. . .  we are living. . . this incredible breath brings me Life . . . such enormous generosity.  Such overwhelming kindness.

So stop and feel . . . what do you feel . . . around you . . . in your body?  Slow down a few paces . . . watch and listen . . . observe .  . and open . . . to the incredible majesty that is occurring. . .  right now.  It’s all happening within you.

Have a great weekend . . . . wherever you are. . .  and whatever you’re doing.  But also, maybe, stop . . even for a few minutes . . .  and allow Neptune to step forward, let him speak to you . . . . his magick is delightfully mysterious. . .  inspiringly creative. . . . and so lovingly healing.

Enjoy your living

lotsa luv . . . . marilynxxxx