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Day 5 . . . on this current journey with Silicea LM1.   Been a while since travelling one of these potent homeopathic journeys.  Instigated by the tick bite . . . down at Queen Mary Falls on that powerful New Moon in Scorpio on November 12th (Oz time).

My natal Psyche (asteroid) sat, squished ever so tightly  ~  with this powerful Moon event.  ‘There’s no such thing as a coincidence’ ~ my dear Father repeated often.

I was keen to halt the meanderings of this tick infestation ~  it had no place in my life and wasn’t welcome.  Homeopathy came to mind.  The first remedies dealt with the invader and his poison and clearing the toxins.

I’d forgotten how potent these journeys can be.

Full Moon in Gemini (squat on my Ascendant)  ~ sitting out in the wonder of Mahalia ~ watching the big fat, golden Moon rise over the trees.  My dear friend visiting .  . . lovely snacks and drinks ~ all ready for this mighty show.

Out of nowhere (it seemed) the nausea grew . . . it sat in my throat ~ I tried to ignore ~ been so looking forward to this special visit and event.  No longer possible to ignore ~ had to surrender my special evening with a special friend.  Headed for bed, bucket in tow ~ next at the loo . . . sick upon sick ~ I’ve rarely vomited in my life!  Again and again my body ejected ~ whatever it was.  Next few days feeling delicate.  Plans changed once again.  But lovely friend ~ was so gorgeous.

Naturopath called ~ she understood the peculiarities of these homeopathic remedies.  It’s been a while ~ they were  regularly present in my life years back . . .  brought up my son on homeopathy.

A new remedy suggested . . . Silicea ~ strengthens like glass.  Brings to the surface any that may linger.  ‘You may experience a healing crisis’ she quietly added.  I tensed . . . not too keen on these.

Bringing to the surface . . . well, my body holds some very old stuff.  Yes, I’ve been on a Healing Journey . . . deliberately intended and focused ~ these last five years.  I have so much to do.  And . . . I believe in healing with all my Heart.

Bringing to the surface . . . the virus that visited so many years ago.  It shaped my life ~ I’ve since seen its gifts.  Loaded with a strong need to learn everything by personal experience (all sevens). . . I’ve learnt a lot about the body, the mind/body connection  and the real nature and power of healing.  I’m a Healer . . .

So bringing to the surface ~ I offer myself to this process.  This is the beginning ~ of my Pinnacle chapter . . . so much to do, to experience, to celebrate, to share, to create, to unfold.  These are super powerful times . . . what we ask for arrives.

So much we can do . . . we’re being prepared ~ a huge year on our doorstep.

lotsa luv to you all . . . . marilyn  ♥♥♥

Tomorrow we enter the last month of 2015 ~ what a year it’s been.  All that’s been offered, presented and manifested is vibrating and held  in this concentrated time . . . will I open the door and let it in?

Will I be brave ~ and step over the threshold ~ will I say YES ~ I will walk forward.  Will I take a chance ~ will I follow my heart?  Will I step out on the big world stage.

I can almost hear the symphony ~ building, soothing ~ such sweet melody.  Do I realise how fortunate I am?  So much being offered ~ if only I open my eyes.

Trust what you feel, believe in yourself ~ follow your knowing … rejoice in what you’ve achieved.  Don’t be distracted by all who desire your attention ~ many false prophets manipulating your feelings.

You are wise ~ so much more than you know.  You know what to do ~ dare to speak up, stand up . .  . leave the crowd.

Bravery has been building . . . day after day, week after week . . . here we stand at this glorious threshold ~ so much is possible.

Turn your head . . . just a little ~ a whole new world open to your vision.

Use this time . . . how precious it is ~ so much on the table ~ if you’d only say yes.

We’ve been awoken, to our self ~ trust in your knowing ~ step up and step out … a new world awaits us all.

lotsa luv … from me

marilyn ♥♥♥

This is a major Moon event . . . in a major passage ~ as we complete this powerful year of manifestation.

For myself personally it’s significant ~ merging with the symbol of ‘Wounding and Healing’ ~ Chiron, ‘the focus point/essence of personality and it’s expression’ ~ Sun/Moon midpoint, and ‘what shadows are revealed when love comes knocking’ (Leah Whitehorse) ~ Psyche.

Whatever, however this potent New Moon connects with your own energy ~ the power of transformation is great.  The power to renew, regenerate, allow lost parts of yourself into being.  Welcome the Shadow ~ a new road awaits.

Activations occur often by a person, situation or event . . . or simply by un~manifest energy circling your field.  These are significant times we’re passing through.  We have the opportunity to open doors not possible before.  A new world, new road opens up.  Everything is a mirror of where I stand.

I like to honour these gifted events . . . our great Mother Moon ~ her energy so much a part of our self.  Her cycle affecting all on Earth.  Her memories call ~ a voice silent but real.  She connects us to our past, our foundations ~ all those closely connected ~ that have walked before us . . . leaving us their heritage.

She shines in our sky for our delight . . . she sets the stage for love.  She’s Mother ~ she nurtures, she leads us to what we need ~ to feel comfort and ease.  She is home ~ where we feel safe.  She rules the waves ~ she takes us deep into unconscious realms.  She is beautiful . . . she shines her light so we can see our way.  Much is revealed when we open to her cyclic wisdom.

Personally and collectively I feel this Moon cycle is significant ~ the second last New Moon of this great year of manifestation.  I will honour this New Moon in a special place.  This is a turning point ~ to uncover what’s so long been hidden.

Psyche & Eros

lotsa luv to you all … marilyn  ❤ ❤ ❤

Snuggled under my purple moon and stars brushed cotton doona . . . only 6.30pm (real time), awake at 2.30am… so much has been happening.

After five years of solitude and healing. . . I began my steps back to the world.  So much transpired . . . my journey of healing in this special Sacred Land.  Early days of negotiations the voice was loud and clear ‘you need to ask the Land Spirits if you can be the next caretaker’.  Visions of ancient ceremonies, discovering sacred sites . . .  ‘used for three hundred years ~ before settlement’ the Diviner said.  I came to open a Healing Retreat.

So many magickal experiences ~ new, not experienced before.  Seeing beyond the physical, visits from Star people.  New world birthing, the arrival of the Sacred Feminine . . . my healing journey.  My body weak, they all supported me.  Love flowed abundantly, there were often tears on my cheeks.  I’d feel the embrace of the Mother, feel her hand caress my cheek ~ outside in the sleepy dawn, watching the stars and waiting for the sun.

And now it’s a new time . . . the gate is opening.  I’m new, body needs to build its strength.  I step out to meet.  An area not so familiar to me.  I trust, I know what is asked for arrives.  I tend my garden, I honour the beauty . . .  I learn to love myself.

Such big times . . . especially this last chapter of 2015.  I trust Life to care for me . . . I take care of myself.  Strange things happen, people appear in my space . . . trying to make sense, understand.  I am good and pure at my core.  We seek for others to understand . . . sometimes what we cannot say.

Things being offered . . . what is real, what is not.  So much happening inside me.  I trust myself . . . I allow myself to evolve.  I know that many are here with me . . . I’m never alone.  I’ve been told that often . . . I mustn’t forget.  Events can be confusing, don’t understand . . . hold on to myself . . . the clouds always part.

I remember . . .  back in January 1985 ~ I sent out a cry for help . . . the song filled the particles in the room . . . I knew where it came from.

lotsa luv to you all. . .  marilyn ❤ ❤ ❤

Springtime

Energy’s been strong . . . or at least it’s effect on me.  I look at the sky charts ~ what is influencing?  Yes ~ our mighty Sun has been crossing swords with some of our distant buddies ~ big boys Uranus and Pluto.  Let’s just say they agreed something needed to be decided ~ made clear.  They know how to turn up the heat.

Feelings, emotions I hadn’t felt for a while . . . fear, dread, doubt.  What do I know, what do I reflect?  Oh goodness I don’t know.

October 1st ~ Mahalia’s birthday ❤

I am free ~ I luv the feeling of freedom. I belong to myself (a real Virgo trait) ~ no-one else. I answer to myself. My world revolves around who I am.

I create, I give, I support ~ I love, I care … by choice. My world is created by me ~ I luv this feeling of freedom.

Soooo many years of conditioning ~ how long has it been? Six thousand years some say … this age of patriarchy. Memories of who we were, who we are ~ are dim; the light gone out long ago ~ through shock and much mistreatment.

We’ve grown to mistrust our body ~ given it away, displayed a price tag ~ what we need in return. We have all we need in the core of our being. We’re radiant, beautiful, stunningly wonderful … we are ‘me’, myself ~ one of a kind.

We need to return to our beautiful bodies ~ celebrate its callings; its nuances ~ the shame is fading. Bar it from your living space ~ it has no place around you.

Yes years of denial have morphed into the physical ~ but its awakening. These times are mighty ~ powerful resources are available to us.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling ~ I belong to no man, not to anyone. I am complete within myself. I celebrate with abundant givingness ~ to myself. I luv who I am ~ how I move, what I do … I luv myself unconditionally.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

I’m woman ~ I’m powerful; I celebrate my longings and desires ~ they are but natural expressions of my love core. I’m free ~ the chains rusted with ages gone ~ disintegrated before my eyes. The door of the cage stands no more … the guards disappeared.

I’m free. I’m free to be uniquely me. I’m a beautiful woman ~ with many gifts.

The power of the woman has been rebirthed … she knocks on your door. Don’t be afraid ~ say yes, yes I’ll follow you. Goodness the world waits with breath held taut … the awakening of woman is a most powerful event ~ the likes of which has not been known for thousands and thousands and thousands of years.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

And if/when those moments of doubt appear ~ sink into yourself  ……

Last month’s blog… my first back in a while, I decided I’d like to be more regular, consistent… two areas that could do with some loving.  They haven’t been my strengths in the past… so muscles a little forlorn.  But it’s a new time and if you don’t step out there you’ll never know what could be.  You first need to go there in your seeing eye, in your creative vision.

I’m not sure how your life has been… but the big times haven’t really stopped for years… such a growth time.  An opportunity for healing which most certainly is unique.  So much is possible… we sit at the beginning of a new Age ♥  We are creators.

Looking at my Lunar Return chart this morning I saw Saturn about.  He’s the Master of regular and consistent.  Life is one long healing journey.  My latest venture… on-line dating.  I figured it was time to move my boundaries out a bit… with Capricorn Moon not so easy.  And Virgo’s are sooo fine ~ on-line dating is a wee bit gross.  Virgo/Neptune mix is very sensitive.  And very fussy.  But then they don’t like to offend anyone, they like to help.  I need to use Virgo’s highly perceptive and discriminating vision… and always trust my first impression.  A very dear friend/therapist used to say that to me often… ‘marilyn, trust your first impression.’

Learning is life long.

I wish you well on your travels… lotsa luv me ♥♥

It’s been a while.  I have been writing ~ every day.  Well, when do I not write?  I have journals upon journals, all different sizes and shapes.  I like the ones with paper covers, all different designs, colours and sizes ~ you used to be able to buy.  But since Crazy Clarks went into liquidation they’re becoming more difficult to find.  Buying plastic doesn’t turn me on.

Like yesterday ~ went into Kyogle to do some shopping.  Watson’s have the ‘shoppers’ buses on Thursdays.  They needed to put in a request… I wasn’t aware of all the paper work/bureaucracy involved.  Being an isolated rural community, I discovered, Watson’s can apply to government offices for a concession for running the buses.  They needed to request this before offering the Thursday Shopping service, which runs two a day.  From the stories they told, it wasn’t a simple process.

The buses aren’t packed, not the mid-day shopper one ~ yesterday there were only two of us, plus the driver Max.  Fortunately for Watson’s, it’s the school bus as well.  So mornings and late afternoons they fill up with all the country school kids.  It’s fascinating to observe… the country scene.  Sometimes Max, one of the Watson’s, will take a detour so he can take the person to their front gate.   Or if someone has heaps of shopping, he’ll park the bus right in front of their property, then get out and unpack all their shopping.  You see things here, you’d never see in the city.  ‘Someone should write a book about these guys’ I often mutter to myself.  I don’t really want to…. I have other things to write.  But I’m sure they’ll find a place in my tales, about my time here in the Woodenbong hills.

Anyway… I was talking about plastic; finally remembered to get some asafoetida at Bambu, the health food shop in Kyogle.  I kept forgetting.  Searched the shelves, couldn’t find it… ‘it’s in the middle row’ dear Sapatra calls from the counter.  I looked and looked scanning the middle shelves… I can’t find it.  ‘Where exactly’ I ask her.  Out she comes from behind the counter… ‘they’ve changed the packaging’ she says, in her very cute Asian accent.  It’s a bright yellow plastic container, with an equally bright blue label… adorned with a pic of what appears to be an Indian deity on the front.  It’s one dollar more… ‘paying for their new packaging’ I mutter to myself ‘; why does everything have to be in plastic?  I’ll search around and see if I can get it bulk.

I was feeling a bit wobbly still yesterday… that bang on the head on the weekend away has really traumatized my neck and spine.  Compressed all the vertebrae, inflaming all the attached muscles… of which there are many, connecting my head and my body.  Add to that the cleanse.  It’s nothing extreme (or is it?)…  the ‘flush’ only one day a week.  The first time was okay, the second was harder… and the last time was intense.  I woke the next morning feeling horrible, with such a severe headache ~ ended up on the lounge, horizontal, the whole day… even slept… the headache was yucky.  I looked shocking, so white and drawn.  ‘I think this is too violent for me’ I muttered to myself again and again.

My Intestines are pretty fussy and exceptionally sensitive (my whole body is)… Virgo rules the Small Intestine after all.  And they’re very stubborn… they do not like being forced.  They dig in their heels and offer their objection in no uncertain terms.  Also I’m losing weight, which really freaks me out.  I hate losing weight.  I can’t afford to ~ I’m already very slim.  So haven’t decided what to do.  Have left a message for my Naturopath, she hasn’t called back yet.  My skin is looking good thou, also my eyes are so much clearer… and beginning to turn green, in parts anyway.  The Herbalist I used to see years back in Boonah ~ she was the best ~ I wish she was still around.  A similar thing happened when I was seeing her, my eye colour was changing.  She told me that I should normally have blue eyes… not sure if that’s because of my heritage;  I was the only one in my family with hazel eyes.  And they have these specks… they’ve always been there, as long as I can remember.

The reason for doing the cleanse?  Time to refresh the elimination channels… but body being so sensitive ~ needs to be gentle.  See how we go.

Anyway… I’ve broken the ice (a relevant term this morning) I’m back at my blog.  A cold chilly morning here, in the minuses… white filled the valley, the sunrise was sensational.  Fire’s burning, snug inside… better get on with the day.

much love… me ♥

The Ishtar Essence brewing… birthed on the Venus Return ~ 6th of June 2012

A powerful year 2012… a big time in history we find ourselves in 🙂   I’m going to try something new… I’ll  post photos from over the years here at Mahalia, and things I’ve written ~ journal entries, book writing etc.  Journey’s back to other times ❤

This one I wrote in my book writing place… I’m planning to write books.  So this is a first draft… feels good to try something new.  Well… these last few days, Pluto dallying with our Sun… more transformation.  I’ve had a lot of Pluto these last few years  🙂

20th February 2015

Yesterday’s power packed New Moon. I felt it coming, it felt strong. On Moon calendar it had New Moon at 0 degrees 1 min Pisces. Two days before it I became aware of its strength… then discovered it was an Aquarius New Moon at 29 degrees 59 minutes ~ and with the GVA call the previous morning, there appeared to be a touch of confusion about.

Well the last two days have certainly been action packed… that cross over point from Aquarius to Pisces, that 29 degree point of intensity, all that Neptune energy… no wonder a healing by air and water. Two cyclones cleansing Oz ~ Marcia crossing over Gladstone area; watching the live satellite image of Marcia as she approached Gladstone, she looked like the Mother, well and truly pissed, as she prepared to give Gladstone a battering. She reminds us where the limits are. She’s a mighty warrior.

Yesterday, the second Meridium Therapy with Neils: missed the morning bus back, so was in Kyogle until the later bus at three. Library visit was most productive, met a lovely woman, approached me and asked if I wrote in the NGT’s, she reads my articles. This happened last week in Kyogle as well, with another woman. Great acknowledgement. Also met Alana (women at op shop finding bears), lives at Green Pigeon, nice woman (looks like might have indigenous blood) again yesterday on way to my appointment. So couldn’t chat long, just a couple of words.

Library was good; borrowed some more books, had a cup of tea (a tea area set up by someone, Enga there from Care Connections ) so had long chat with woman, who asked about the NGT, she lives down past Cawongla, keeps goats and makes her own soap ~ she gifted me one, I chose patchuli… it’s beautiful, lovely and oily (like my favourites). That was a great get together, but not long after I began to feel really tired ~ like really tired, hard to keep moving about, and later waiting for the bus, I could hardly keep my head up. I did find a stray needle on my chest, was it still in my skin? Will check with Neils. But then long trip back on bus, so difficult to stay awake, bought myself some carob liquorice for the bus trip back, to give me some energy to stay upright.

Then back home, concerned about cyclone as had been expected to make its way down here, albietly much reduced. So online looking at weather sites, then FB, in between removing even more things off the verandah. Took glass table in the car shed; took all the pot plants off the deck onto the grass close to the edge of the deck; all the chimes off, pillows, little blue table, table, chairs and painting from the front verandah ~ all inside. Rocks and crystals, anything small. Cleared as much as I could… so a bit of heavy lifting, after already being excessively tired.

Was nearly 10pm (dst) when I ate, couldn’t eat much, stomach too sensitive. Was midnight by time I went to bed. Had a bit of a restless night, dreamt but can’t remember it. Today early on computer/phone checking cyclone, messages etc, watched quite a bit on TV. Everything I didn’t really need to do… ’cause now I’m totally exhausted. Unsteady on my feet and my left back shoulder is very tender, I must have pulled it moving things.

An early night would be good for me. Last few days have been huge. I was right… it was a super powerful New Moon (well it was a Super New Moon).

till next time ❤ ❤ ❤