Author: marilyn

Feeling for my wings.  The cliff craggy, many sharp edges . . . my vision focused on the green fields below.  Water rambles knowing its purpose ~ to the sea, to the sea . . . not far now.  Growth is abundant in this luscious valley ~ sun shines warmly on contented souls.  The great wheel turns ~ birth, death, renewal . . . all a part of the cycle of living.  Letting go to the seasons ~ transformation is assured.

We stand at the edge ~ beginning and ending . . . one door closes, another opens . . . we take our self wherever we go.  Life is full ~ of opportunity ~ learning constant ~ our path is solitary.  Helpers are present ~ but decisions are ours.

We walk through times thick with meaning, purpose, cleansing ~ a new world births.  Filled with old, needing shedding ~ becoming lighter ~ ready for flight.  We release our shoulders and spread our wings.

A new world awaits for all who believe ~ faith in goodness, love and peace.  We stand on the edge of before, now and coming.  We get to direct the course of our life.  What we think, soon becomes things.

We are born from Earth and ancient Star bits ~ we hold within a pinch of Divinity.  We are only one ~ there are no repeats.  If only we knew how special we are.

We walk in light, we stumble in shadow ~ we use our senses to know where we stand.  We know who we are, we see where we’re going . . . we walk with freedom ~ we’re always protected.  We never walk alone.  Many are with us, day and evening ~ we are loved more than we may ever know.

As we say goodbye to 2015 ~ gratitude and thanks for all the gifts and blessing ~ we open the door to a fresh new time.  How will we be?  Well that’s up to us.

lotsa luv … Marilyn ❤️❤️❤️

Sun begins his new journey ~ our core, our inspired direction ~ our purpose.

The cycles continue ~ their rhythm connecting and flowing through all life ~ supporting existence ~ harmonising and balancing.

The great mind of the Mother ~ we attempt to mimic and master . . . we are fools ~ have we not learnt from other times?  We are servants of Life ~ not masters.  We are students ~ given the opportunity to witness the majestic wonder.

We’re created, connected by the finest strands ~ pulsating light and sound ~ to the incredible wonder of the whole.

We can never ~ will never, duplicate these magickal wonders in a glass jar ~ under a magnified eye.  What are we looking for?  Is it not obvious what you want?  Why do you pretend to be god?  You only display your foolishness.

The Mother has stirred . . . she’s sent her ambassadors ~ the embodiments of that gentle but powerful creative force ~ clothed as the Feminine ~ the Divine Sacred Feminine.  I was graced to be present at their arrival in 2013.  Their message ~ ‘The energy of the Sacred Feminine needs to grow stronger’.

Rally the troops ~ time to ignite our Hearts.  Switch on the light in the great halls of wisdom ~ collected over millennia.  No beginning, no end.

The cycles continue.  How dare we think we can stand beside.  We show our ignorance.  A long age of darkness ~ falling to the lowest point of our humanity.  But the tide has turned ~ we’re crawling back.  Some are standing tall and straight.  Can you not see the Light?  It shines brightly ~ illuminating all around it.

It’s growing ~ one by one ~ person by person . . . the balance is restored.  The Heart is rekindled ~ the fire burning brightly.  Opening our eyes to the majesty that lies within us and around us.  We are the most gifted species.

We can understand ~ we can merge with the essence of Life itself.  Do we understand how truly fortunate we are?

The bells are chiming loudly ~ their resonance vibrating each cell in our body.  This is the time of which we’ve dreamt ~ from the earliest times.  Peace on Earth ~ goodwill between all human beings ~ is in process.  Awaken and be a part of the greatest achievement the human race has ever attempted.

The Golden Age has dawned ~ you need the eyes to see.  Discrimination required ~ don’t believe the spruikers of shame.  Power and coin corrupted their soul ~ the Faustian deal done again and again.

Be the master of you own destiny ~ the master of your thinking process . . . craft your life on your deepest core values.  Adventure into the world of wonder.  So much more surrounds you ~ but only you can walk through the doorway.

Switch the switch ~ turn on the light ~ embrace the goodness oozing from all living things.  See the opportunities ~ open, reach out, accept ~ take hold.  You are more powerful than you could ever dream ~ be it now.

Happiest wishes and blessing for this new Solar cycle ~ illuminating our purpose and the great creative force within us.

A new time has begun ~ you are invited to be a part.

Lotsa luv to you all ♥♥♥

Day 5 . . . on this current journey with Silicea LM1.   Been a while since travelling one of these potent homeopathic journeys.  Instigated by the tick bite . . . down at Queen Mary Falls on that powerful New Moon in Scorpio on November 12th (Oz time).

My natal Psyche (asteroid) sat, squished ever so tightly  ~  with this powerful Moon event.  ‘There’s no such thing as a coincidence’ ~ my dear Father repeated often.

I was keen to halt the meanderings of this tick infestation ~  it had no place in my life and wasn’t welcome.  Homeopathy came to mind.  The first remedies dealt with the invader and his poison and clearing the toxins.

I’d forgotten how potent these journeys can be.

Full Moon in Gemini (squat on my Ascendant)  ~ sitting out in the wonder of Mahalia ~ watching the big fat, golden Moon rise over the trees.  My dear friend visiting .  . . lovely snacks and drinks ~ all ready for this mighty show.

Out of nowhere (it seemed) the nausea grew . . . it sat in my throat ~ I tried to ignore ~ been so looking forward to this special visit and event.  No longer possible to ignore ~ had to surrender my special evening with a special friend.  Headed for bed, bucket in tow ~ next at the loo . . . sick upon sick ~ I’ve rarely vomited in my life!  Again and again my body ejected ~ whatever it was.  Next few days feeling delicate.  Plans changed once again.  But lovely friend ~ was so gorgeous.

Naturopath called ~ she understood the peculiarities of these homeopathic remedies.  It’s been a while ~ they were  regularly present in my life years back . . .  brought up my son on homeopathy.

A new remedy suggested . . . Silicea ~ strengthens like glass.  Brings to the surface any that may linger.  ‘You may experience a healing crisis’ she quietly added.  I tensed . . . not too keen on these.

Bringing to the surface . . . well, my body holds some very old stuff.  Yes, I’ve been on a Healing Journey . . . deliberately intended and focused ~ these last five years.  I have so much to do.  And . . . I believe in healing with all my Heart.

Bringing to the surface . . . the virus that visited so many years ago.  It shaped my life ~ I’ve since seen its gifts.  Loaded with a strong need to learn everything by personal experience (all sevens). . . I’ve learnt a lot about the body, the mind/body connection  and the real nature and power of healing.  I’m a Healer . . .

So bringing to the surface ~ I offer myself to this process.  This is the beginning ~ of my Pinnacle chapter . . . so much to do, to experience, to celebrate, to share, to create, to unfold.  These are super powerful times . . . what we ask for arrives.

So much we can do . . . we’re being prepared ~ a huge year on our doorstep.

lotsa luv to you all . . . . marilyn  ♥♥♥

Tomorrow we enter the last month of 2015 ~ what a year it’s been.  All that’s been offered, presented and manifested is vibrating and held  in this concentrated time . . . will I open the door and let it in?

Will I be brave ~ and step over the threshold ~ will I say YES ~ I will walk forward.  Will I take a chance ~ will I follow my heart?  Will I step out on the big world stage.

I can almost hear the symphony ~ building, soothing ~ such sweet melody.  Do I realise how fortunate I am?  So much being offered ~ if only I open my eyes.

Trust what you feel, believe in yourself ~ follow your knowing … rejoice in what you’ve achieved.  Don’t be distracted by all who desire your attention ~ many false prophets manipulating your feelings.

You are wise ~ so much more than you know.  You know what to do ~ dare to speak up, stand up . .  . leave the crowd.

Bravery has been building . . . day after day, week after week . . . here we stand at this glorious threshold ~ so much is possible.

Turn your head . . . just a little ~ a whole new world open to your vision.

Use this time . . . how precious it is ~ so much on the table ~ if you’d only say yes.

We’ve been awoken, to our self ~ trust in your knowing ~ step up and step out … a new world awaits us all.

lotsa luv … from me

marilyn ♥♥♥

This is a major Moon event . . . in a major passage ~ as we complete this powerful year of manifestation.

For myself personally it’s significant ~ merging with the symbol of ‘Wounding and Healing’ ~ Chiron, ‘the focus point/essence of personality and it’s expression’ ~ Sun/Moon midpoint, and ‘what shadows are revealed when love comes knocking’ (Leah Whitehorse) ~ Psyche.

Whatever, however this potent New Moon connects with your own energy ~ the power of transformation is great.  The power to renew, regenerate, allow lost parts of yourself into being.  Welcome the Shadow ~ a new road awaits.

Activations occur often by a person, situation or event . . . or simply by un~manifest energy circling your field.  These are significant times we’re passing through.  We have the opportunity to open doors not possible before.  A new world, new road opens up.  Everything is a mirror of where I stand.

I like to honour these gifted events . . . our great Mother Moon ~ her energy so much a part of our self.  Her cycle affecting all on Earth.  Her memories call ~ a voice silent but real.  She connects us to our past, our foundations ~ all those closely connected ~ that have walked before us . . . leaving us their heritage.

She shines in our sky for our delight . . . she sets the stage for love.  She’s Mother ~ she nurtures, she leads us to what we need ~ to feel comfort and ease.  She is home ~ where we feel safe.  She rules the waves ~ she takes us deep into unconscious realms.  She is beautiful . . . she shines her light so we can see our way.  Much is revealed when we open to her cyclic wisdom.

Personally and collectively I feel this Moon cycle is significant ~ the second last New Moon of this great year of manifestation.  I will honour this New Moon in a special place.  This is a turning point ~ to uncover what’s so long been hidden.

Psyche & Eros

lotsa luv to you all … marilyn  ❤ ❤ ❤

Snuggled under my purple moon and stars brushed cotton doona . . . only 6.30pm (real time), awake at 2.30am… so much has been happening.

After five years of solitude and healing. . . I began my steps back to the world.  So much transpired . . . my journey of healing in this special Sacred Land.  Early days of negotiations the voice was loud and clear ‘you need to ask the Land Spirits if you can be the next caretaker’.  Visions of ancient ceremonies, discovering sacred sites . . .  ‘used for three hundred years ~ before settlement’ the Diviner said.  I came to open a Healing Retreat.

So many magickal experiences ~ new, not experienced before.  Seeing beyond the physical, visits from Star people.  New world birthing, the arrival of the Sacred Feminine . . . my healing journey.  My body weak, they all supported me.  Love flowed abundantly, there were often tears on my cheeks.  I’d feel the embrace of the Mother, feel her hand caress my cheek ~ outside in the sleepy dawn, watching the stars and waiting for the sun.

And now it’s a new time . . . the gate is opening.  I’m new, body needs to build its strength.  I step out to meet.  An area not so familiar to me.  I trust, I know what is asked for arrives.  I tend my garden, I honour the beauty . . .  I learn to love myself.

Such big times . . . especially this last chapter of 2015.  I trust Life to care for me . . . I take care of myself.  Strange things happen, people appear in my space . . . trying to make sense, understand.  I am good and pure at my core.  We seek for others to understand . . . sometimes what we cannot say.

Things being offered . . . what is real, what is not.  So much happening inside me.  I trust myself . . . I allow myself to evolve.  I know that many are here with me . . . I’m never alone.  I’ve been told that often . . . I mustn’t forget.  Events can be confusing, don’t understand . . . hold on to myself . . . the clouds always part.

I remember . . .  back in January 1985 ~ I sent out a cry for help . . . the song filled the particles in the room . . . I knew where it came from.

lotsa luv to you all. . .  marilyn ❤ ❤ ❤

Springtime

Energy’s been strong . . . or at least it’s effect on me.  I look at the sky charts ~ what is influencing?  Yes ~ our mighty Sun has been crossing swords with some of our distant buddies ~ big boys Uranus and Pluto.  Let’s just say they agreed something needed to be decided ~ made clear.  They know how to turn up the heat.

Feelings, emotions I hadn’t felt for a while . . . fear, dread, doubt.  What do I know, what do I reflect?  Oh goodness I don’t know.

October 1st ~ Mahalia’s birthday ❤

I am free ~ I luv the feeling of freedom. I belong to myself (a real Virgo trait) ~ no-one else. I answer to myself. My world revolves around who I am.

I create, I give, I support ~ I love, I care … by choice. My world is created by me ~ I luv this feeling of freedom.

Soooo many years of conditioning ~ how long has it been? Six thousand years some say … this age of patriarchy. Memories of who we were, who we are ~ are dim; the light gone out long ago ~ through shock and much mistreatment.

We’ve grown to mistrust our body ~ given it away, displayed a price tag ~ what we need in return. We have all we need in the core of our being. We’re radiant, beautiful, stunningly wonderful … we are ‘me’, myself ~ one of a kind.

We need to return to our beautiful bodies ~ celebrate its callings; its nuances ~ the shame is fading. Bar it from your living space ~ it has no place around you.

Yes years of denial have morphed into the physical ~ but its awakening. These times are mighty ~ powerful resources are available to us.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling ~ I belong to no man, not to anyone. I am complete within myself. I celebrate with abundant givingness ~ to myself. I luv who I am ~ how I move, what I do … I luv myself unconditionally.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

I’m woman ~ I’m powerful; I celebrate my longings and desires ~ they are but natural expressions of my love core. I’m free ~ the chains rusted with ages gone ~ disintegrated before my eyes. The door of the cage stands no more … the guards disappeared.

I’m free. I’m free to be uniquely me. I’m a beautiful woman ~ with many gifts.

The power of the woman has been rebirthed … she knocks on your door. Don’t be afraid ~ say yes, yes I’ll follow you. Goodness the world waits with breath held taut … the awakening of woman is a most powerful event ~ the likes of which has not been known for thousands and thousands and thousands of years.

I’m free ~ I luv that feeling.

And if/when those moments of doubt appear ~ sink into yourself  ……

Last month’s blog… my first back in a while, I decided I’d like to be more regular, consistent… two areas that could do with some loving.  They haven’t been my strengths in the past… so muscles a little forlorn.  But it’s a new time and if you don’t step out there you’ll never know what could be.  You first need to go there in your seeing eye, in your creative vision.

I’m not sure how your life has been… but the big times haven’t really stopped for years… such a growth time.  An opportunity for healing which most certainly is unique.  So much is possible… we sit at the beginning of a new Age ♥  We are creators.

Looking at my Lunar Return chart this morning I saw Saturn about.  He’s the Master of regular and consistent.  Life is one long healing journey.  My latest venture… on-line dating.  I figured it was time to move my boundaries out a bit… with Capricorn Moon not so easy.  And Virgo’s are sooo fine ~ on-line dating is a wee bit gross.  Virgo/Neptune mix is very sensitive.  And very fussy.  But then they don’t like to offend anyone, they like to help.  I need to use Virgo’s highly perceptive and discriminating vision… and always trust my first impression.  A very dear friend/therapist used to say that to me often… ‘marilyn, trust your first impression.’

Learning is life long.

I wish you well on your travels… lotsa luv me ♥♥

It’s been a while.  I have been writing ~ every day.  Well, when do I not write?  I have journals upon journals, all different sizes and shapes.  I like the ones with paper covers, all different designs, colours and sizes ~ you used to be able to buy.  But since Crazy Clarks went into liquidation they’re becoming more difficult to find.  Buying plastic doesn’t turn me on.

Like yesterday ~ went into Kyogle to do some shopping.  Watson’s have the ‘shoppers’ buses on Thursdays.  They needed to put in a request… I wasn’t aware of all the paper work/bureaucracy involved.  Being an isolated rural community, I discovered, Watson’s can apply to government offices for a concession for running the buses.  They needed to request this before offering the Thursday Shopping service, which runs two a day.  From the stories they told, it wasn’t a simple process.

The buses aren’t packed, not the mid-day shopper one ~ yesterday there were only two of us, plus the driver Max.  Fortunately for Watson’s, it’s the school bus as well.  So mornings and late afternoons they fill up with all the country school kids.  It’s fascinating to observe… the country scene.  Sometimes Max, one of the Watson’s, will take a detour so he can take the person to their front gate.   Or if someone has heaps of shopping, he’ll park the bus right in front of their property, then get out and unpack all their shopping.  You see things here, you’d never see in the city.  ‘Someone should write a book about these guys’ I often mutter to myself.  I don’t really want to…. I have other things to write.  But I’m sure they’ll find a place in my tales, about my time here in the Woodenbong hills.

Anyway… I was talking about plastic; finally remembered to get some asafoetida at Bambu, the health food shop in Kyogle.  I kept forgetting.  Searched the shelves, couldn’t find it… ‘it’s in the middle row’ dear Sapatra calls from the counter.  I looked and looked scanning the middle shelves… I can’t find it.  ‘Where exactly’ I ask her.  Out she comes from behind the counter… ‘they’ve changed the packaging’ she says, in her very cute Asian accent.  It’s a bright yellow plastic container, with an equally bright blue label… adorned with a pic of what appears to be an Indian deity on the front.  It’s one dollar more… ‘paying for their new packaging’ I mutter to myself ‘; why does everything have to be in plastic?  I’ll search around and see if I can get it bulk.

I was feeling a bit wobbly still yesterday… that bang on the head on the weekend away has really traumatized my neck and spine.  Compressed all the vertebrae, inflaming all the attached muscles… of which there are many, connecting my head and my body.  Add to that the cleanse.  It’s nothing extreme (or is it?)…  the ‘flush’ only one day a week.  The first time was okay, the second was harder… and the last time was intense.  I woke the next morning feeling horrible, with such a severe headache ~ ended up on the lounge, horizontal, the whole day… even slept… the headache was yucky.  I looked shocking, so white and drawn.  ‘I think this is too violent for me’ I muttered to myself again and again.

My Intestines are pretty fussy and exceptionally sensitive (my whole body is)… Virgo rules the Small Intestine after all.  And they’re very stubborn… they do not like being forced.  They dig in their heels and offer their objection in no uncertain terms.  Also I’m losing weight, which really freaks me out.  I hate losing weight.  I can’t afford to ~ I’m already very slim.  So haven’t decided what to do.  Have left a message for my Naturopath, she hasn’t called back yet.  My skin is looking good thou, also my eyes are so much clearer… and beginning to turn green, in parts anyway.  The Herbalist I used to see years back in Boonah ~ she was the best ~ I wish she was still around.  A similar thing happened when I was seeing her, my eye colour was changing.  She told me that I should normally have blue eyes… not sure if that’s because of my heritage;  I was the only one in my family with hazel eyes.  And they have these specks… they’ve always been there, as long as I can remember.

The reason for doing the cleanse?  Time to refresh the elimination channels… but body being so sensitive ~ needs to be gentle.  See how we go.

Anyway… I’ve broken the ice (a relevant term this morning) I’m back at my blog.  A cold chilly morning here, in the minuses… white filled the valley, the sunrise was sensational.  Fire’s burning, snug inside… better get on with the day.

much love… me ♥