Category: my online journal

Ancestry will always be strong in me… Sun on IC (imum coeli)… deep in the heart of Cancer’s home.

Right at the core… doesn’t get much deeper than that.

There at my core… that Scorpio blood runs deep. Ancient Sorceress.

Magick light and dark… we walk the path of death and rebirth… while Life dances around us💗💗

Trees – how magnificent they are. How splendiferous. So much beauty floods my being. If we could only see the magick… feel it, know it’s alive.

Know it’s real.

We breathe it in.

It’s what grants us the great Grace… of being here. Alive, present – able to absorb it all… and join in with its celebration of everything.

Much Love 💗🐸💗

It’s been a very different year. 

I saw that mystery right at the start… looking at the Birth Chart for 2023. 

The support was obvious… but more like a background/hidden kind… not up front and in your face.

It was a bit of a mystery… right from the start. There was always a question mark attached to its name.

And here we are just a couple of short weeks till its end. We made it through… as they say ‘we live to tell the story’.

Many I’m sure are well and truly immobilsed by all the headlines… internally as well as externally. A huge drama happening within and without.

2024 is the year of the Dragon… my favourite kind. It’s the year of the Wood Dragon.

I don’t have much experience with the Wood element (in Chinese Astrology)… at least not consciously. But I’m happy it’s going to be a Dragon year. Dragon’s are very cool🙂🙂

I think we’re going to have to re-route our curiosities to our internal ecology… our undiscovered treasure chest inside our self. ’Cause I think this sorting out the mess on Earth is going to take a while.

We just correspondingly build our resources. Knowing our values. Living our values. Evolving as a human being… on this amazing planet Earth.

I’ve never been where I’m standing now… it’s a totally unknown presentation. All the familiar landmarks are gone. A bit like being lost at sea. Sigh… Neptune.

I have myself to guide me. And the great force of Love that never abandons me.

I remind myself of my intention… my love, my commitment.

I always have a choice… even though sometimes they might hide in doubt. Which way do I want to go? How can I celebrate this miraculous Life of mine… walk bravely through it all.

Much Love to You💗💗

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as if I didn’t aquire that particular switch.

This unfolding, transformation stuff can be hard at times.

It’s like I couldn’t resist it… even if I tried

Oh yes… it’s had its benefits and gifts. But it’s as if I don’t know another way.

It started early… exposed to out of the ordinary things. Big tests right off.

They say you’re not given anything you don’t have the capacity to handle. And make something good of it.

It was never going to be an ordinary life. It was crafted exactly… to suit your purpose. And sacred evolution.

There is only movement.

Life constantly reaches out… constant creation. This miraculous dance.

I decided to give this new therapist a go… as my search led to her. I trust life.

Her ways different to my way of doing things… permeated as I am with such exquisite sensitivity.

My trainings, gifts, abilities… are body focused. So many secrets she reveals… she holds it all.

My fascination for her never wavers.

But this therapist’s way is different… I resort to resistance. I jump up to defend.

I never realised she was so strong… this other part of me… I made her good. Clever I’ve always been… still, as I venture into older age.

What a trip this life is.

The sessions… nothing much is felt. I’m used to feeling deep and strong… and seeing things. Deeply transforming experiences.

This is different.

Body is always there though…present, active, assimilating, sorting.

Deeply buried stuff is unlocked from its hiding place. This is tough for the body to experience.

Emergency stations.

Sigh… this transformation stuff is hard at times.

And maybe that’s okay… you’ve been strong for so long.

No… never a normal life. How is that possible for anyone.

🧡🧡🧡

You’re going to be okay… I said to myself.

Disappointment is hard… specially when it goes deep. The part inside longs… so much. The pull is strong.

Then there’s the fear… the new kind of fear.

Life’s always evolving… moving. We learn to walk the same… yet different. We keep on changing. We need to make changes.

It’s hard… we’re used to our familiar way. A long time doing it one way.

You can’t escape it… no matter how strong your belief in miracles. And they do happen… all the time.

Life blessed me with this knowing… this belief. Welded in strong right at the start. But yes the fear walked too. Strange companions they are.

Step by step… continuing on the path of loving and adoring… loving it all.

Takes a lifetime it does. I can’t seem to learn fast enough. I’m impatient at times.

You’re going to be okay… you are okay. Way more than okay… your life has been blessed beyond, and beyond. And more.

You’re ok, you’re ok… you’re safe.

Life is kind💗🌺💗