loving myself ❤️

The two foundational ‘Integrative Powers’ in the coaching journey are ~ clarity and acceptance.

First we must become clear on what it is we desire. What it is we want to achieve. What our being most longs for.

Becoming clear on our objective ~ we then consider ~ can I accept this desire, this wish, this longing?  Can I accept the feelings, emotions and bodily sensations that arise with this desire?  The most affective transformation sits on acceptance.  Its finding a true place of acceptance somewhere in your body/mind.

I guess we could ask ~ do I accept myself?  Do I accept my desires and wishes?  Do I accept my right to choose?  Do I accept the deep core of my being?

I did a luscious Rest Retreat with Kylian Martin at the beginning of the year.  I know some deep part of me needs deep rest so badly.  It sometimes feels as if I’ve been wound up so tight for so long… my body’s frozen in this position and unable to release.

So much trying, so much achieving, so much compromise, so much shutting off and out.  So much trying to squeeze into a shape you never were made to fit.

During the Deep Rest Retreat Kylian invited us to create an intention.  The words popped into my head straight away… ‘I honour the beauty of my being’.  I said it over and over.

Last year deeply immersed in the intensive coaching training I was involved in… I became aware of how much my experience of self-love was growing, in a way I’d not experienced before.  I really was putting myself first, taking special care of myself.

Life happens ~ and many things can pop up onto your path, diverting the direction and scenery for a while.  I’m not quite sure what sparked it off… this intense focus on my family/ancestral healing.

I suspect it was due to the deep dives into my body and psyche… our trauma training took me.  Being a Virgo I have a particularly active body/mind connection going on.  Anything comes up ~ I feel it straight away someplace in my body.

Being seventy I’ve had lotsa time to get stuck in some habitual grooves… I’m ever grateful for my passion for healing.  Who knows how far we’ll get along this golden path.  But while there’s breath, there’s hope (that was a marilyn quote).

So these last six months… since just before my birthday in September, the gates opened and in flowed the tsunami.  And I’ve been feeling every bit of it in my body.  And somehow amid it all I’ve forgotten all about loving me.

Sometimes it’s hard if your body hurts, your head feels weird, or you’re feeling isolated and cut off… drowning in a sea of people.  But we are the only one who is always here.  Always available (whether we’re conscious of it or not).  Always on your side, always knows the whole story, always knows your incredible worth, always loves you more than anyone could possible hope to.

So clawing my way back onto the path of self love.  Not sure how I slipped off it.  And yes of course I resist, I procrastinate, I hesitate, I doubt, I wallow in my pain.  But yes… maybe, just maybe I do everything I do,  because … I know best.

much love to you ~ marilyn ❤️💋❤️

(tried typing these words directly on the keyboard… I normally write by hand directly into my journal.  Then sometimes also type them into the computer.  Means doing it twice.  So trying different ways to see if there’s a notable difference in the transmission.  As I’ve always been a hand writer)

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my hunger for life💚

It’s St Patrick’s Day 💚  Celebrating my ancestral roots… those rich green magickal lands of Ireland.

I celebrated with a sunny spot at my favourite corner coffee shop… just across from where I live. Haven’t been there much in a while… as I’ve wiped coffee from my life.  I never have drank much, and when I do its half strength and milky.  It’s just my dose of social interaction.  ‘Cause I spend a lot of time alone.

Went for an early swim before… the water was warm, the tide was in.  I only go out the back (of my cabin) when the tide is high… as I need to float or swim through the mangroves to get to the open space of the river.  Well it’s actually called a creek.  But it’s not like any creek I’ve known before. It’s long and it’s wide… and deep. Yep looks more like a river than a creek.

It branches off from the Brunswick river not far from my cabin.  And that part of the river is close to the river’s mouth at the ocean.  So you could say on each high tide the river/creek is filled with ocean water.  It’s mostly clear and clean.  Only after heavy rain and storms does it show some debris floating by.

My hunger for life.  I think it’s always been that way.  I fought for my life all those years ago.  I stepped up to the plate, stretched out, felt the pull to express.  I was passionate about life.  Passionate about growth, wellbeing and health.  You could say I was a passionate girl.

I got off pretty scot free… or so it seemed.  Having been hit from that super virile virus so young… I appeared to fully recover.  And so set off to climb my mountains.  I was enthusiastic and willing. Something kept pulling me on.

Then slowly things began to appear.  Around fifty was the start of it… the Chiron Return?  It’s also a time for woman when her hormonal fluctuations begin to manifest.  I never experienced the classic signs of menopause… then I never experience the classic signs of anything.  That’s the problem.  As most solutions are for classic signs.  Those other ones are a mystery to everyone.

But I’ve always loved a mystery.  I certainly don’t lack in the curiosity department.  I’m an eternal student… always curious, always learning.  I’m highly sensitive… so I see, hear and experience things above and beyond.  It gets lonely sometimes (often🙁) ’cause there don’t appear to be herds of people aligned with my vibration. Let’s just say there’s not a lot. Sometimes I feel like a galactic import… from another dimension in time and space.   Yet I love Earth… and I love being here.

I don’t give up.  I can have a dog with a bone thing happening sometimes.  It works both ways.  I could let go more.  But I live in me.  I live in my body, I know what goes on and how it feels.  I’m pretty smart.  I perceive things at their core at times.  And yes like any other human… I can be blind, make mistakes and move into denial.  So where does that leave us?  Which side of the line do you stand?  With what others think? Or what you know?

It’s a lonely path at times.

I’m sooooo grateful for my hunger for Life.

lotsa love ~ marilyn🧚‍♂️💋🧚‍♂️

a mighty new astrological year approaches…

Ahhhh Snowie ~ I miss you heaps.  My longtime feline friend❤️❤️

We’re a week away from the Equinox/Full Moon in Libra…  a special beginning to the 2019 Astrological Year.   March 21st (here in Oz/) right off the mark is the Equinox, exact 8.58am.  Full Moon follows at 1.45pm.

Adding to this super benevolent blessing from Venus is the special zodiacal degree of this Full Moon in Libra… 0 degrees.  A significant placement in astrology.  0 degrees of the Cardinal Signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) is referred to as the ‘Aries Point’, the AP.

The AP represents a movement (cardinal) from an inner quality to an outer manifestation.  It orients us towards the world at large ~ society, public events and all relationships propelled from the individual to the collective.  Sometimes it represents a ‘spectacular out rush of energies… and involvement with the world at large.’  Celest Teal

O degrees of Cardinal Signs are the Equinox and Solstice points. The changing of the seasons… the apparent change of direction of the sun.   They are significant activation points… propelling inner qualities to manifest outwardly.

Libra represents relationship. This coming turning point is shining a light on relationship. Venus reminds us that relationship holds the key to our new cycle ahead. It’s time for us to unite ~ neighbourhoods, communities, cities, towns countries.  And the first step to this apparent massive intention… is loving me.  Falling deeply in love with myself.

What small changes, new movements or habits could you welcome  into your life?   To honour and love your unique and wondrous self… like never before.   You are totally unique and created from Love.

There’s heaps of cosmic support at present helping us create a more caring, loving  and peace filled world.  As dear Louise Hay so often reminded… it all begins with loving you.

How can you ride the wave of this special, magickal Equinox time…  not one to let slip by. What new direction can you allow to unfold… welcome in? Remembering your power to manifest your most treasure desires is now heightened.  Could say… propelled with Venus rocket fuel.

I’m celebrating this gifted new beginning ~ with stepping out another step.   A big one for my Sun who likes to snuggle away in my cave.  There’s been lots of energy focusing on my ‘public face’ of late, the MC in my natal chart.  Been heaps of activation.  And we know ~ it’s best to go with the flow.  So much easier.

I will be offering Tarot readings, Astro updates, Flower Essence consultations, Chakra Balancing and Energy Clearings… which can all be done remotely (from a distance).  Flower Essence will be posted to you.

What things, events, emotions, areas in your life have been unfolding for you?  2019 is here to make an impression, stamp a big difference.  As always we need to slip into the stream and flow with the current.  Tune into the current vibration.  Trust what you know to be right for you.

2019 is a significant year to create the nurturing that supports and encourages thriving… that makes you happy.  What feels good for you?

lotsa love to you 💚🌈💚 marilyn

Let’s shift the focus to Gratitude

It’s easy to get caught up… in what’s not feeling good, or what is lacking.  Or so we perceive.

It’s important to remember to honour and love your self.   Yes we forget.  And when we remember, we get to experience that sweet feeling again.

Things happen in life.  But amongst it all is you, is me.  And that’s what’s important. How I’m feeling in any moment.  How I can give myself what I need.

‘Cause Life is good… very very good.   That Divine Breath honours you with its presence again and again and again.  We get to live a Life on this beautiful Earth.

Today I experienced a kind of rebirth.  It was an enlightening experience. After last years intensive coaching training and all the digging we did in our body and psyche. All the learning and new skills which I’m still completing and assimilating the process.  It’s been one of the most transformative chapters in my life.

What supported me to have this rebirth experience today after months of intensive experience… was coaching time with my beautiful sisters.  It’s such a powerful resource… to feel safe, held, heard and seen.  To be held in a container of such skill and presence… and love.

So much is possible…  I think I’ve known this all my life.  It’s what keeps me going, taking the steps.  Yes, a bit of Virgo’s impulse ‘to make better’…  Scorpio’s to evolve and transform.  ‘Cause we’re always in constant motion… we’re never standing still. Everything is evolving every single moment.  But we get a choice… as to which way we’re heading.  We do this with our focus.

After this morning’s transformational call…  I was reminded of my blessings as I slipped into the river… full tide flowing with strength and gentle ease.  I swam and swam and swam and swam… immersing myself in the great healing waters of Neptune.  And was reminded once again of the power of gratitude.

Gratitude for my Life, gratitude for me.  Gratitude for everything I have.

During these luscious moments of Dark of Moon ~ especially in the compassionate sign of Pisces… we get to experience the amplification of our feelings, we get to dive into the depths inside us and find that sweet place of just being.   A big and powerful yet gentle New Moon gets ready to birth.  Use these last hours before the birth to feel into the magickal depths of you.

Much love ~ and Special New Moon Blessings…. marilyn💎💎💎