S u c h a beautiful morning 😊 Sun’s shining his radiant brilliance. After weeks of wet it feels so… rebirthing. Sometimes we gotta go really deep to reach who we are.
Covered over ~ layered; deep dark muddy brown. Self hidden under layers of protection ~ so deep it’s hard to find my self. I’m so grateful for the training I was guided to.
Often curious ~ I’d murmur to myself ~ ‘there’s gotta be something more’. Relationships haven’t been super abundant in my life but they have formed significant and memorable chapters. Who doesn’t desire closeness and connection? A dear friend in a storm. Someone who feels safe and familiar ~ good to be with. It’s a human basic need.
‘There’s gotta be something more’ I’d ponder. But too embarrassed and shy to raise the topic. I mean who talks openly about sex? Definitely not good, respectable girls. Yes there’s the physical ~ the natural pleasure sensations built into the body. It’s not that though ~ is it? It’s this hunger for something deeper. How to connect at that deep level ~ experience the healing power of intimacy.
Feeling tender this morning. It was a big coaching session yesterday. I went down another layer into the depths of me… revisiting times when major decisions were made. That became concreted into my core… influencing and directing every decision I made.
Who I am is what I do. How I vibrate is what I attract. How deep can I go if not first within myself? The sacred chambers of my Heart.
The most expansive ~ the most influential ~ the most central ~ the most all encompassing. The most intelligent. My Heart… the centre of my Universe. It holds, it contains, it witnesses, it guides. It shines, it glows… it warms. It sits quietly.
How one moment in time can influence a life. That a pain, a shock can go so deep it changes my anatomy and redirects my course. The hardest though ~ the most heartbreaking is it separates me from my self.
It’s tender yes. It’s soft and vulnerable. And it’s deep…. so deep. This Heart of mine has a depth I feel will take my remaining days to mine. I’m super grateful for my trust… that I trust to follow the voice.
The desire for more real, more true, more close, more absorbing. Uniting with all that is ~ all that’s been so magnificently provided.