Yesterday was a struggle ~ the second day of Mars in opposition to Pluto… a majorly dynamic joining.
First day was spent at ‘home’ amongst the trees; and the distant freeway rush. Everyone (well, lots) is in a hurry… we’re addicted to speed. God knows why, when we know what awaits us at the end of the road.
I luv the stillness ~ that kind that has many doors; one opening after the next… welcoming you into Sacred Space. It’s impossible to describe, you just need to feel it. So many secrets ~ so much wisdom, in those sacred chambers of beingness.
Freeways get larger and longer ~ more concrete poured. Cars blow poisons into our environment. Body’s tangled in chords of impatience. Jobs to be done, places to go ~ deadlines to meet; as I sit amongst the trees, discovering new doorways.
There’s a lost part of marilyn knocking loudly… wanting presence and a seat at the table. Her presence is palpable… been so long living without her.
Empathic and a ‘Healer’ type my fields are open… ever ready to help, cheer or heal; it’s often unconscious. My chatty, light and warmth long to connect ~ but it’s the other part… the strong and straight, decisive, firm and self protecting one; been washed away, flooded by grief. Trauma twists and turns ~ but the foundation’s always there.
Why it take the time it does we may never know. Cards, star charts and psychics peek into the mists searching for clues. Right here, right now the miracle breathes.
‘Today there’ll be evidence of how much I’m loved all around me’ I said out loud; it was my vibrational alignment focus for this morning… and gee did it stir some deep emotions, and a well of tears.
Sitting ~ legs outstretched on my comfy bed; back supported by soft white cushions. Chai in hand; beside me Sun’s just risen over the ocean… a spectacular view through the long glass doors.
My body’s exhausted ~ yesterday was simply too much for my sensitive nervous system. A resting day today.