Mars and Pluto

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Yesterday was a struggle ~ the second day of Mars in opposition to Pluto… a majorly dynamic joining.

First day was spent at ‘home’ amongst the trees; and the distant freeway rush.  Everyone (well, lots) is in a hurry… we’re addicted to speed.  God knows why, when we know what awaits us at the end of the road.

I luv the stillness ~ that kind that has many doors; one opening after the next… welcoming you into Sacred Space.  It’s impossible to describe, you just need to feel it.  So many secrets ~ so much wisdom, in those sacred chambers of beingness.

Freeways get larger and longer ~ more concrete poured.   Cars blow poisons into our environment.   Body’s tangled in chords of impatience.  Jobs to be done, places to go ~ deadlines to meet;  as I sit amongst the trees, discovering new doorways.

There’s a lost part of marilyn knocking loudly… wanting presence and a seat at the table.  Her presence is palpable… been so long living without her.

Empathic and a ‘Healer’ type my fields are open… ever ready to help, cheer or heal; it’s often unconscious.  My chatty, light and warmth long to connect ~ but it’s the other part… the strong and straight, decisive, firm and self protecting one; been washed away, flooded by grief.  Trauma twists and turns ~ but the foundation’s always there.

Why it take the time it does we may never know.  Cards, star charts and psychics peek into the mists searching for clues.  Right here, right now the miracle breathes.

‘Today there’ll be evidence of how much I’m loved all around me’ I said out loud; it was my vibrational alignment focus for this morning… and gee did it stir some deep emotions, and a well of tears.

Sitting ~ legs outstretched on my comfy bed; back supported by soft white cushions.  Chai in hand; beside me Sun’s just risen over the ocean… a spectacular view through the long glass doors.

My body’s exhausted ~ yesterday was simply too much for my sensitive nervous system.  A resting day today.

 

A new day

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A new day dawns ~ a fresh opportunity.  Dazzled and blessed by Venus on awakening;  sitting just above the Pleiades.

The energy is strong (‘when isn’t it’ you might exclaim) during this mid-year crossing.  Currently warrior Mars ~ imbued with passion and desire to act, is moving closer to his exact confrontation with Pluto.  I’ve always felt the build up is the strongest energy… that two degree approach.

As always we have choice; these choices clarify where we stand.  Mars confronting Pluto can be majorly plutonic… sparks and explosions igniting simultaneously.

Or it can grant you the boon of rebirth… a deep and lasting transformation.  We have choice… even if at times it may not appear that way.  We cannot escape the law… what we vibrate, we attract to us… like metal filings to a magnet.

My gut/digestion is speaking loudly… been rumbling there for last few weeks; then last week ~ unleashed its full displeasure.  Some focused attention needed.  I’ve become familiar with my body during my time on Earth.  As Virgo Sun… body is intricately connected to everything.  My fields are super sensitive, requiring a gentle approach.  I turn to what  I know, I listen and strive to understand.  ‘What’s the disharmony… what’s ill at ease?’  Well ~ seven moves in five months, since leaving my sacred space is a start.  Then the twists and turns, ancient  memories and emotions still stored in my body.  We need to heal to be our self.

Healing has been a major focus of mine for a long time.  Introduced to the world of sickness, death and disease; and the modern medical system, at the tender age of three.  I’ve observed a lot… taken in many impressions.

I’ve trusted my sight and sort my own way.

This year will be 66 years since my little life changed; a magick number ~ a Master Number. Speaks to me of love, family, nurturing and creativity.  That new chapter I saw and heard approaching; two years prior to leaving Mahalia.  I saw the beauty, the sacred space that awaited me.  I also felt the fear and shock, the terror of leaving this place I was so deeply connected to.  My sacred home of such incredible beauty… a place that took me in and held me close; nurtured me in an unimaginable way.  There’s so much we don’t see with our eyes.

I trusted the message ~ I heeded the call… I needed to be prepared to leave Mahalia.  Was I that brave… was I that courageous?

The move was tough… almost claimed me.  It took my body to the edge… it’s a journey I’ve not taken before.  But I trusted the message ~ my  most important chapter was approaching.  I needed to let go… and follow the voice.

So the 7th move ~ back amongst the trees; my body needs rest and nurturing… especially amid these deeply stirring energies.  Something wants to be released ~once and for all.  Let go, let go… what does it teach us, this letting go thing?

The sky is light, soon Sun will rise… another day to celebrate.