‘What would happen if you understood that you were in exactly the right place, right now?’ Stacey Demarco
Feeling lighter this a.m. ~ yesterday was one for the record books. What it means, that it was the beginning of my new Lunar Cycle . . . I’m sure will unfold. Already seeing the gift.
Intensity on a scale ~ over the limit, in the red ~ ‘that’ feeling underneath is most familiar; that horrid feeling ~ like thick, gooey treacle; but not as nice to eat and good for you. That bit under ~ so familiar. Been there a long time ~ this horrid sense of dread ~ fear, anxiety and panic; all in increments of revelation and exposure.
I know its inside me ~ have employed various tactics and tools to make it go away. Seemed way too overpowering to just stop and look. Ran for the hills ~ deadened my brain . . . took whatever escape route was nearest. Feeling like I just didn’t have the strength to face it.
Noticing little things ~ sometimes bigger ones ~ like that intersection, where this dark gooey substance surfaces; noticing (gleefully) how my response has changed. I don’t submerge myself into its grip.
Step by step I grow ~ my courage swells.
I know I need all of myself ~ to embark on this journey of a lifetime . . . presented by this wonderful year.
There can be no holes ~ no vacuums ~ no black gooey substance, oozing in hidden corners. I need to be me ~ unadorned with any residue of previous traumatic events. The holes they dig are deep ~ carefully hidden from view. But you feel them, don’t you? Those times ~ when they rise and overtake ~ left in the swirl of that dark, gooey mess.
So much growth has occurred ~ especially since 2012. Last bits happening now . . . well, yes fine-tuning always ~ whilst we breathe.
Do I have the courage to face the monster? I know he won’t be as scary in the light of day. It’s just that ways of coping/managing have turned themselves into solid habits. Well Saturn is now in Sagittarius . . . let fly ~ release into Truth.
As I opened my computer to type ~ this message arrived . . .
‘It has been my philosophy of life that difficulties vanish when faced boldly’. Isaac Asimov 1920-1992 Author.
As my dear Dad always said ‘there’s no such thing as a coincidence’.
Release ~ Release ~ Release . . . we are built from Love and Strength.
lotsa luv from me ❤ ❤ ❤
(ps . . . Pallas Athene ~ ‘the Wisdom of the Warrior’ has been sitting with our Sun, Moon and Mercury . . . can’t you feel her presence? Moon now moved into radical Aquarius ~ moving toward a meeting with Cassandra ~ ‘The Prophetic Soul’, the Medial Woman. There’s lots of help about . . . .)