Month: January 2016

the fog clears . . .

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‘What would happen if you understood that you were in exactly the right place, right now?’ Stacey Demarco

Feeling lighter this a.m. ~ yesterday was one for the record books.  What it means, that it was the beginning of my new Lunar Cycle . . . I’m sure will unfold.  Already seeing the gift.

Intensity on a scale ~ over the limit, in the red ~ ‘that’ feeling underneath is most familiar; that horrid feeling ~ like thick, gooey treacle; but not as nice to eat and good for you.  That bit under ~ so familiar.  Been there a long time ~ this horrid sense of dread ~ fear, anxiety and panic; all in increments of revelation and exposure.

I know its inside me ~ have employed various tactics and tools to make it go away.  Seemed way too overpowering to just stop and look.  Ran for the hills ~ deadened my brain . . . took whatever escape route was nearest.  Feeling like I just didn’t have the strength to face it.

Noticing little things ~ sometimes bigger ones ~ like that intersection, where this dark gooey substance surfaces; noticing (gleefully) how my response has changed. I don’t submerge myself into its grip.

Step by step I grow ~ my courage swells.

I know I need all of myself ~ to embark on this journey of a lifetime . . . presented by this wonderful year.

There can be no holes ~ no vacuums ~ no black gooey substance, oozing in hidden corners.  I need to be me ~ unadorned with any residue of previous traumatic events.  The holes they dig are deep ~ carefully hidden from view.  But you feel them, don’t you?  Those times ~ when they rise and overtake ~ left in the swirl of that dark, gooey mess.

So much growth has occurred ~ especially since 2012.  Last bits happening now . . . well, yes fine-tuning always ~ whilst we breathe.

Do I have the courage to face the monster?  I know he won’t be as scary in the light of day.  It’s just that ways of coping/managing have turned themselves into solid habits.  Well Saturn is now in Sagittarius . . . let fly ~ release into Truth.

As I opened my computer to type ~ this message arrived . . .

‘It has been my philosophy of life that difficulties vanish when faced boldly’. Isaac Asimov 1920-1992 Author.

As my dear Dad always said ‘there’s no such thing as a coincidence’.

Release ~ Release ~ Release . . . we are built from Love and Strength.

lotsa luv from me ❤ ❤ ❤

(ps . . . Pallas Athene ~ ‘the Wisdom of the Warrior’ has been sitting with our Sun, Moon and Mercury  . . .  can’t you feel her presence?  Moon now moved into radical Aquarius ~ moving toward a meeting with Cassandra ~ ‘The Prophetic Soul’, the Medial Woman.  There’s lots of help about . . . .)

big New Moon

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Sun setting on Nothofagus

Wow ~ it’s some New Moon ~ goodness. This A.M. I wrote in my pink covered journal ~ ‘feeling so heavy, depressed today.  New Moon and my new lunar cycle ~ my Lunar Return’.  It’s certainly been big ~ god.  I asked if it was inside me ~ said yes.  Sometimes it’s not ~ it’s the collective energy.  I feel them both; I’m a feeler.  It’s been my path and has  brought me to here and now.  I’m grateful.

But heh girls ~ we’re warriors ~ did the warrior pose in Yoga today (yum), with affirmation ‘I am capable’.  I’m just LUVin this Yoga Camp ~ Yoga with Adriene ~ fantastic; soooooo transformational.

Amid and amongst all this highly charged rebirth energy ~ Pluto sitting with our Sun and Moon ~ today is the New Moon ~ first for 2016 … thus contributing its energy.  A big year.

Ground, stabilize, strengthen; love yourself unconditionally ~ accept ~ be strong. This is your time.

We are all connected ~ and for us girls it’s been a very long Patriarchy. Sacred Feminine only arrived two years ago.  Last year gave us the sight, and gift of manifestation.  This year we get to use it.

So this cleansing ~ geez ~ the waters are deep.  It’s a huge passage ~ clearing the deepest, most hidden, unconscious parts of our body and psyche.

Pluto ~ with the Light and Love of our sacred Sun and Moon ~ is pouring down a rebirth rain. We need to be as gentle, caring and loving to our sacred self as we possibly can.  Deep stuff is coming up.  This is not just us; this is the Big Cleansing ~ the birthing of a New Age.

Big New Moon ~ be tender with yourself ~ allow yourself time to process the purging.  Flower Essences are great (remind myself) ~ they’re so nurturing.

Take time for yourself.

 

lotsa luv from me  ❤ ❤ ❤