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 A big Full Moon approaching ~ February 4th, 10.09am (east coast Oz).  So much support… the Sacred Feminine is certainly here and giving of her luscious wisdom.  The game has changed.  Oh yes, lingering stray bits of shrapnel about… but your focus, those thoughts, those words ~ so important now.  We’re creating our world, every moment of every day.  We need to be conscious and aware of what it is we’re creating.

The forward momentum is strong, but we need to rebuild our strength ~ 2014 took a lot, tanks are low.  Time is still needed for resting, amid the impatience to get  moving.  We need to be still, observe and listen… what is it I’m meant to be learning here?  Why is this happening now?  What part do I play in its creation?  What no longer serves me?  Time to put out the rubbish.

It’s finer now ~ well, the Sacred Feminine is involved.  The rules have changed.  We can vision our world.

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No more blood, sweat and tears.  It’s been a long time since the Sacred Feminine was in residence here on Earth… a very long time.  We can send healing and clearing energy to our Sacral Chakra… so wounded over the time of the patriarchy, especially for women.  It’s the chakra of creation and pleasure.

sacral chakra frm Natalie Southgate Founder of Chakradance

‘The main function of this chakra is emotional flow. The Sanskrit name for the sacral chakra Svadhisthana means sweetness. The essence of this chakra is revealed in the sweet exchange of intimacy and connectedness. Physiologically, the sacral chakra governs our sexual development and maturity, and the health of our reproductive and urinary systems. As well as sexual pleasure, the sweetness of the sacral can be experienced through nurturing ourselves with the simple pleasures of rest, good food, and tactile pleasures like dancing and massage’

‘Experiment with playing in the sacral chakra – swim, play in water; wear orange clothes or bring the colour orange more into your life (the colour of the sacral chakra); take relaxation baths with candles and oils; drink lots of cleansing and nourishing fluids; take pleasure in cooking meals and really tune into the smells and tastes; surround yourself in beauty (art, flowers, music, colour – whatever makes you feel good); invoke your inner child and play!’

Natalie Southgate… founder of Chakradance.

Invoking your inner child to play is greatly supported by this approaching Full Moon in Leo.  Leo is the creative child, the generous and noble lover of life, she seeks the spotlight and loves to shine.  The stage is calling you.  It’s time.

Moon is currently in her waxing gibbous phase… we’re nearing the end of a building cycle, our thoughts, ideas and actions about to culminate.  The seeds planted during the New Moon in Aquarius (January 20th) then acted on in the first Quarter Moon (January 25th) are now nearing their full expression.  We’ll shortly be harvesting our crop;  Moon will then begin to wane, entering her Disseminating phase; drawing her energy back; time for distribution, sharing and introspection after any adjustments required during the Full Moon.

Emotions are heightened with the fullness and expansion of the Moon.  Where we’ve placed our energy and focus will become obvious… all revealed in her brilliant fullness.

Don’t forget… you create your world.

lotsa luv

marilyn♥♥

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as my life unfolds…

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little Marilyn pre-polio

This 2015 certainly has a dynamic whoosh!  It’s hell-bent on movement and on a focused target.  So much can be achieved this year ~ this is the year for manifesting dreams.  For real.

I don’t recall a year that’s begun with so much momentum, I feel it in my body, in my cells ~ even as my body recoups its strength, depleted by the demanding intensity of 2014.  For me it began on January 1st, without thought or plan I started clearing my space.  It happened so naturally, seemingly without effort.  ‘I’m doing it’ I kept repeating to myself. . . I like this energy of 2015.

It feels like a culmination of my life’s experiences. . . like a crowning; experiencing a trust in myself I’ve not known before ~ like I’ve come into myself at last.

‘Where is marilyn?’ ‘Who is she?’ ‘What is she like?’ ‘Where did she go?’  I pondered these questions often last year, as my life was thrown to the squalling gale force winds.  My father once told me I went into hospital one little girt and came out another.  At the time I didn’t give it much thought, I was still deeply anchored in my reconstructed self.  The one set up to conform, to be a normal person. . . I thought.  I look back and see so much dysfunction… hardly surprising; who was behind the wheel if marilyn had disappeared?

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little Marilyn in the midst of Polio (and the hospital hair cut!)

Having a natal Moon in Capricorn, foundations, stability, growth and achievement are important for my emotional wellbeing.  Moon in Capricorn reflects an innately responsible nature, with an urge to master material resources.  They can feel a deep sense of duty around supporting others.  Capricorn is realistic but feels most secure with solid structures and foundations supporting them.  Any perceived threats to these creates  insecurity.  Polio changes physical structures, it disrupts foundations.  Compensation was required, this happened physically, mentally and emotionally.

For all its trials and trauma, 2014 has gifted us with considerable understanding and wisdom. . . and with rebirth.  January 1st 2014 began with a New Moon in Capricorn . . . Pluto sat with the Sun and Moon.  Pluto great Lord of the Underworld offers his gift of transformation, if we’re willing to take the journey to the depths.  2014 was a  huge year of clearing.  At times we need to be taken to the edge to understand what we’re capable of.  The immersion into the fires of Hades, visiting the darkest corners, we find our light.  Transformation is real, we shed our skin, we are reborn.

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It’s important to understand how we operate, how we are made… it helps us to be kind to our self.  We were created by the great Heart and hand of Life ~ the Master Creator.  We were made perfectly, we must never doubt this.  There are things that only we can know, only we can do; there was only one of us ever made, there will never be a repeat.  We need to trust who and what we are.  We’ve been given so much.  We’ve come here to learn and to share. . . to be our sacred self.

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It’s close now this new life,  I can feel its refreshing breath on my cheek . . . not far now, we’re soon to meet.  All exists long before it culminates in the physical; it begins with a thought, a dream an idea.  It forms itself into an energetic shape, living in our outer bodies until the time is right for it to arrive in physical form.  That’s why we know it, we feel it ~ it’s already with us, just in another dimensional space.  The physical is the slowest moving of all the planes. . . it takes time to restructure itself into 3D reality.

Multiple layers of energy surround the physical body, some refer to these as aura’s or the Auric field.  The three physical planes of the Auric field are comprised of the Etheric Body, Emotional Body and Mental Body…  I exist, I feel, I think.  These three ‘bodies’ or Auric fields are connected to the physical body via various structures and systems ~ and directly impact the functioning of the physical body.  This is becoming more commonly known, at least that our thoughts and emotions have an effect on our physical health.

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It was 1998 and I was experiencing my first major ‘crash’ ~ which literally chewed me up and spat me out.  I’d been working in Real Estate, for little money and very long hours.  I had an auction approaching.   As I opened my eyes to a brand new working day, I felt it straight away, I couldn’t move; it didn’t take long to register what was happening, I’d finally pushed myself over the edge.  I somehow managed to maneuver myself out of bed and went straight to the phone, I rang my therapist/friend.  ‘I’ve finally done it to myself’ I blubbered incoherently into the phone.  He had tried to warn me many times, the risks of running my tank dry.  He was clear and direct,  ‘go to your doctor’ he said.  I did.  He told me I was incoherent as I babbled on about not wanting to let people down (my job, the auction), he appeared to think this was extreme behaviour, to consider others at a time like this.  I thought it was pretty normal behaviour.

It was a long and difficult road, about two years.  Unable to function in a consistent manner, communication was difficult, I couldn’t put words together.  As you can imagine, my material world fell apart. . . I lost my home.  But my resilience was still firmly intact, I kept on walking, one foot in front of the other.

The strangest thing happened that first day, as I lay sobbing on the lounge ~ I heard a voice.  It wasn’t mine but it seemed to be coming from inside me, it sounded male, I didn’t recognise it.  It said ‘I will give you a second chance’, I replied through my copious tears ‘I promise I wont do this to myself again’.

After months at home resting and recovering my Reiki Master/Teacher/Healer at the time asked if I’d like to help with her stall at the Body Mind and Spirit expo. . . I wanted to go.  First day there we set up the stall, not long after I was feeling  weak, I needed to find a quiet place to rest.  There were so many people there.  As I walked I passed a stall offering ‘healings’ by donation, I saw something that caught my attention.  It wasn’t the words, it was the man doing the work.  I’d never seen an energy field like that around anyone before, it was so large and luminous.  I felt shy but I finally approached and asked if I could have a healing.  When the healing finished, I was shocked at what happened, I felt his hands move through my skin into my body as he worked on my back. . . like a kind of psychic surgery.  I quickly found a quiet corner to sit and cried and cried and cried for over an hour.  During Pranic Healing there is no physical contact.  I’d never experienced anything like it before.  Not long after I started my tuition with this wonderful man. . . my beginnings as a Natural Therapist.

During those earlier years I didn’t know myself as I do now, that’s really been more of a recent thing.  (The incredible healing time here at Mahalia has bestowed this wonderful gift ~ trusting who I am for the first time.)  Consequently my early experiences  with energy were rather confronting,  I was now experiencing energy as tangible form, I could see it, I could feel it and I was learning how to work with it.  It smashed a few concepts and shallow ideas I’d taken on.  There was so much going on in the energy world.  As a Pranic Healer you work in this environment, you are trained to clear these energetic forms.  Because anything in the energy field eventually makes it to the physical.  In my training I’d have ‘entities’ grab me by the throat, seriously, it was both scary, shocking and funny.  But looking back now, I see I’ve been seeing and feeling energy most of my life, I just didn’t have a name for it.  Consequently I tended to distrust my experience.

The reason I mention this is sometimes this whole energy/aura thing can appear to be a product of the ‘New Age’, people have even referred to me this way.  I’ve always been quick to correct them: ‘I’m not ‘New Age’ or alternative or bohemian. . . I’m a modern woman’.

Energy is real to me.  Yes, I’ve been trained, but I instinctively know it.  I see and hear things that don’t fit into 3D reality. . . like visits from Pleiadians (who spoke to me), and Venus moving through my skin, into to my body, returning after many years.  These are not products of an over-active imagination, they happened.

So it’s a great relief to finally be me… thank you 2014 for your seemingly cruel and gruelling machinations.  There was a purpose after all…. It’s good to be home.

Fly with the wind ~ this gifted 2015

lotsa luv marilyn♥♥♥