well it’s well over a week….


… since my weekly blog post was scheduled, a lot’s been happening.¬† But I do like to remain committed.¬† To my writing.

If you’re¬†interested in Astrology,¬†it’s possible you’ve¬†heard about the Cardinal Grand Cross forming in our skies… and both¬†a New Moon and Full Moon Eclipse.¬† Big month April.¬† Oh, and of course, the 5th exact Pluto/Uranus ‘square’… ¬†a challenging, growth promoting, life changing, world changing¬†energy in our current world.

The energies are big, they illicit a response.  But how we respond is our choice.

I’ve been¬†aware of my body for a while now.¬† Those who don’t know, I ‘stopped’ back in March 2011.¬†¬†My central nervous system decided to wave the white flag…. ‘truce please truce’.¬† I’m not an easy one to stop.¬† I still struggle and resist. ¬†I’m a Virgo, I like to do things.¬† Makes things neat and tidy, to heal and make¬†beautiful.¬† That’s not too much to ask, is it?

My focus these last three years has been healing. ¬†I have a strong drive to improve, to discover, to move beyond our current understanding.¬† To grow, to learn, to share.¬†¬†Life is a magickal¬†journey of¬†discovery.¬† I like to look towards the sky, that ever protective arc of blue.¬†¬†The distant planets and stars¬†sitting gloriously in our evening sky.¬† I feel the earth beneath my feet…¬†the love travels¬†through my meridians, to my energy centres, feeding my body¬†and¬†nourishing my emotions.¬† We’ve been created from the intelligence of Life, awesome material, the primordial flame that¬†keeps our inner core alight.

We’re pretty cool stuff…

Back to my body, back to my needs.. (it’s easy for¬†me to be diverted from this).¬† I’ve been finding things a peep overwhelming of late.¬† I don’t experience this as often as I did. ¬†I’ve been building my muscles.¬† Yes, I know… the Cardinal Grand Cross, the two Eclipses.¬†¬†And my natal Moon is joining in this massive¬†joining in the sky.¬† My Moon… she’s really on display.¬† She usually likes to keep a low profile, which really p….eaves Miss Venus in Leo.¬† But she’s taken on the vibrations of Capricorn and Saturn, she can be a little serious and ever¬†hardworking. And sitting in Scorpio’s house, the 8th… she’s pretty private, and¬†a wee bit psychic.¬† So many feelings everywhere… I need recovery time, every time I go out.¬† Even a trip to¬†Woodenbong (a little village)¬†will do it.¬† It’s great being sensitive… but geez.

It seems to take a lot of connection to myself… to really trust¬†my first instinct.¬† I have a therapist friend who use to remind me of that quite regularly.¬† I can be a slow learner, for one who was gifted a keen intelligence.¬† Then again I live differently now, I’m sixty-five¬†and I live in the country… and have a strong desire to write, and take photos.¬† Forever trying to capture the¬†beauty.¬†¬†But alas,¬†Beauty cannot be caught.¬† This growing awareness happening within me… that changes are required and soon.¬† I need a hand, I do… to caretake this special place.¬† Or is it time to move on, I don’t know.¬† Different cycles require different things.

There’s no¬†need to go into reasons.¬† I just need to listen to my needs.¬† I know what my intentions are, they’re quite clear… I’m healing.¬† That’s first on my list.¬†¬†I’m healing something that¬†has been with me a very long time, most of my life.¬† That doesn’t daunt me… everything improves if given the chance, with time.¬† We need to set our levels high.¬† This is our life, it’s an¬†important time.

So much more is now¬†understood.¬† Well, some were aware a long time ago… but as a collective¬†we take a bit longer to get it.¬† Many new discoveries now…¬†of how the body and mind function.¬† I suspect we see only a little.¬† Life is magick, it is… that’s how it was made.¬† We were created to enjoy, to experience love and peace in our lives.¬† We were created by one that was very, very kind.

So what are the changes that are required?¬† From me?¬† What do I need to do differently?¬† I live on a beautiful property, a gorgeous house that’s quite substantial, I like¬†my environment to be cared for… loved and given attention.¬† I purchased this property with a definite goal in mind.¬† I was going to open a rural Healing Retreat space, I’d had the vision for many years.¬† I’d already created a Healing Centre in the city, that was only¬†eight years¬†ago now… gosh so much has changed in that time.¬† Hasn’t it?¬† I know it has for me.

I use to be a little Energizer¬†Bunny.¬†¬†Gosh,when I think of what I use to do.¬† I was driven to do, to improve… to make beautiful, to heal.¬† In Chinese Astrology… I have an overload¬†of Rat energy.¬†¬†In¬†my ‘Four Pillars’,¬† three are Rats!¬† Geez, no wonder.¬† They’re very active those little Ratties.¬† They’re not ones to sit around on the couch all day, it makes them very nervous.¬† They like to do things.

‘I am the self-proclaimed aquisitor.¬† I am a link yet I function as a complete unit.¬† I aim at encompassing heights and strike my target, sure and steady.¬† Life is one joyous journey for me.¬† Each search must end with a new quest.¬† I am progress, exploration and insight.¬† I am the womb of activity.¬† I am the Rat’…. Theodora Lau

But things are changing… have changed.¬† I sit in a different place.¬† A journey that¬†began, has taken me here.¬† Trusting myself so imperative now.¬† If I look to the past, I feel remorse, for all that’s no longer.¬† If I look to the future, I don’t know, what will be.¬† I only have now.¬† And now, I can no longer do what I once did.¬† I cannot be continually active.¬† My body has changed, is changing and will continue to change.¬† That’s why my focus is so important… I’m constantly creating my world.

I’m finding I just want to write… to take photos, to write books, make videos… there’s so much to communicate right now.¬† Maybe we’re being called, to stand and accept our dharma… do what only¬†I can, you can, do.¬† We are unique.¬† The seven billion of us… unique.¬† I feel we are being called… to stand in our uniqueness… to use the skills and talents we were gifted with.¬† We came already with everything we need… we’ve just polished some things along the way.

We need to operate from Heart… from Love and Peace.¬† We need to be what we are…. Divinely created beings of Light and Love.¬† With a capacity to create miracles.¬† We all have within us the flame, the spark¬†of the Divine.

The time is now.

No, it’s not always easy… when there’s so much movement, so many strong energies competing for our attention.¬† We’re living through a unique time… possibly one that’s not happened ever before.

The birthing of the Golden Age.

I need to be clear… I need to trust implicitly, my inner voice.¬† This journey is a big one… it wants all of me.


lotsa luv




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I love to write . . . I love to appreciate all the beauty in life. I find comfort and healing in dear Mother Nature's bounty, creative projects fill my home ~ everywhere. I've done many things and more await me ~ life is a journey, a creative adventure. I often say thank you for all that's been given.

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