… since my weekly blog post was scheduled, a lot’s been happening. But I do like to remain committed. To my writing.
If you’re interested in Astrology, it’s possible you’ve heard about the Cardinal Grand Cross forming in our skies… and both a New Moon and Full Moon Eclipse. Big month April. Oh, and of course, the 5th exact Pluto/Uranus ‘square’… a challenging, growth promoting, life changing, world changing energy in our current world.
The energies are big, they illicit a response. But how we respond is our choice.
I’ve been aware of my body for a while now. Those who don’t know, I ‘stopped’ back in March 2011. My central nervous system decided to wave the white flag…. ‘truce please truce’. I’m not an easy one to stop. I still struggle and resist. I’m a Virgo, I like to do things. Makes things neat and tidy, to heal and make beautiful. That’s not too much to ask, is it?
My focus these last three years has been healing. I have a strong drive to improve, to discover, to move beyond our current understanding. To grow, to learn, to share. Life is a magickal journey of discovery. I like to look towards the sky, that ever protective arc of blue. The distant planets and stars sitting gloriously in our evening sky. I feel the earth beneath my feet… the love travels through my meridians, to my energy centres, feeding my body and nourishing my emotions. We’ve been created from the intelligence of Life, awesome material, the primordial flame that keeps our inner core alight.
We’re pretty cool stuff…
Back to my body, back to my needs.. (it’s easy for me to be diverted from this). I’ve been finding things a peep overwhelming of late. I don’t experience this as often as I did. I’ve been building my muscles. Yes, I know… the Cardinal Grand Cross, the two Eclipses. And my natal Moon is joining in this massive joining in the sky. My Moon… she’s really on display. She usually likes to keep a low profile, which really p….eaves Miss Venus in Leo. But she’s taken on the vibrations of Capricorn and Saturn, she can be a little serious and ever hardworking. And sitting in Scorpio’s house, the 8th… she’s pretty private, and a wee bit psychic. So many feelings everywhere… I need recovery time, every time I go out. Even a trip to Woodenbong (a little village) will do it. It’s great being sensitive… but geez.
It seems to take a lot of connection to myself… to really trust my first instinct. I have a therapist friend who use to remind me of that quite regularly. I can be a slow learner, for one who was gifted a keen intelligence. Then again I live differently now, I’m sixty-five and I live in the country… and have a strong desire to write, and take photos. Forever trying to capture the beauty. But alas, Beauty cannot be caught. This growing awareness happening within me… that changes are required and soon. I need a hand, I do… to caretake this special place. Or is it time to move on, I don’t know. Different cycles require different things.
There’s no need to go into reasons. I just need to listen to my needs. I know what my intentions are, they’re quite clear… I’m healing. That’s first on my list. I’m healing something that has been with me a very long time, most of my life. That doesn’t daunt me… everything improves if given the chance, with time. We need to set our levels high. This is our life, it’s an important time.
So much more is now understood. Well, some were aware a long time ago… but as a collective we take a bit longer to get it. Many new discoveries now… of how the body and mind function. I suspect we see only a little. Life is magick, it is… that’s how it was made. We were created to enjoy, to experience love and peace in our lives. We were created by one that was very, very kind.
So what are the changes that are required? From me? What do I need to do differently? I live on a beautiful property, a gorgeous house that’s quite substantial, I like my environment to be cared for… loved and given attention. I purchased this property with a definite goal in mind. I was going to open a rural Healing Retreat space, I’d had the vision for many years. I’d already created a Healing Centre in the city, that was only eight years ago now… gosh so much has changed in that time. Hasn’t it? I know it has for me.
I use to be a little Energizer Bunny. Gosh,when I think of what I use to do. I was driven to do, to improve… to make beautiful, to heal. In Chinese Astrology… I have an overload of Rat energy. In my ‘Four Pillars’, three are Rats! Geez, no wonder. They’re very active those little Ratties. They’re not ones to sit around on the couch all day, it makes them very nervous. They like to do things.
‘I am the self-proclaimed aquisitor. I am a link yet I function as a complete unit. I aim at encompassing heights and strike my target, sure and steady. Life is one joyous journey for me. Each search must end with a new quest. I am progress, exploration and insight. I am the womb of activity. I am the Rat’…. Theodora Lau
But things are changing… have changed. I sit in a different place. A journey that began, has taken me here. Trusting myself so imperative now. If I look to the past, I feel remorse, for all that’s no longer. If I look to the future, I don’t know, what will be. I only have now. And now, I can no longer do what I once did. I cannot be continually active. My body has changed, is changing and will continue to change. That’s why my focus is so important… I’m constantly creating my world.
I’m finding I just want to write… to take photos, to write books, make videos… there’s so much to communicate right now. Maybe we’re being called, to stand and accept our dharma… do what only I can, you can, do. We are unique. The seven billion of us… unique. I feel we are being called… to stand in our uniqueness… to use the skills and talents we were gifted with. We came already with everything we need… we’ve just polished some things along the way.
We need to operate from Heart… from Love and Peace. We need to be what we are…. Divinely created beings of Light and Love. With a capacity to create miracles. We all have within us the flame, the spark of the Divine.
The time is now.
No, it’s not always easy… when there’s so much movement, so many strong energies competing for our attention. We’re living through a unique time… possibly one that’s not happened ever before.
The birthing of the Golden Age.
I need to be clear… I need to trust implicitly, my inner voice. This journey is a big one… it wants all of me.