‘sheltering from the storm’… by me
I was feeling the approaching ‘storm’… as I completed the painting for our local WAG exhibition ‘Spring into WAG’. But the ‘silver lining’ presented not long after, thankfully. I was reminded of my special gift, the one given to us all… my ability to appreciate, to appreciate my Life. And I made myself a promise… to celebrate my Blessings, every single moment… until I have to leave. Self promises can’t be ignored.
September came in with a charge of energy… Springtime on steroids, a rush of new events and experiences. A lot has happened in these last few weeks. I knew a chapter was ending… and a new one beginning, but this month has brought significant welcomed clarity… and some challenges.
Darkness and light… yes, we appear to be living in significant times… both collectively and personally. A powerful stimulus for evolutionary advancement, ever present in our day to day lives.
It’s so.o.o.o.o important, more than ever before… where I place my focus. As the power of focus has multiplied considerably. So important to visualize the world, the body, the Life we want for ouselves.
Five months after coming thru the gates of Mahalia for the first time… this magickal, sacred land that has nurtured me… the 2nd big ‘crash’ occurred. I really wasn’t expecting this one. But again the warnings were there. It’s been an enlightening few years in so many ways. So much I’ve ‘seen’, so much I’ve learned. So much magick, so much loving, so much care… so much healing. I’ve experienced and understood ‘things’ about our precious Mother Nature… that I never knew before. The education has been extraordinary… no where could I have learnt… what was shown to me here. Life is Magick indeed! And oh so kind… and ever giving.
Yes, there were challenging times, of course, we depend on our Body for so much. But in contrast to what was given, they appear less in my memory. It’s the learning that was important, and still is. I was given the steering wheel of this vehicle of mine… I make the choices, I choose the direction. Yes, there’s been affects, that’s the nature of the physical… but the growth and the depth of healing, I’ll never really comprehend. I know it happened and it’s with me now, in my present… and will guide me to my future. I’m incredibly grateful for all the love and kindness that’s been showered upon me… and continues.
My Body still gets tired, there are things that are not so easy to do and some I cannot anymore. After draining the cup twice… the reservoir of Chi… the Body is affected. Permanent or temporary I don’t know. I know my focus is so terribly important now. As one chapter ends and another is taking shape… I sit at a junction, a very important one. This could be the biggest chapter of my Life. So critical how I take the next steps. So much has changed, I stand here in a new form… at a new time, with a new future. My focus is different… the steps needed, to be taken so carefully…. a lot is at stake. This crossing needs to be made with the greatest of awareness… and conscious intent.
Boundaries, Safety, Emotions, Body… and my dear friend Polio… come to me at this time. No more time for mistakes, not serious ones anyway. Significant times require me to be fully present, Life is the priority… clarity my friend. It’s an important chapter… a new beginning in so many ways.
Been travelling back thru the journals… around the time of the 2nd big ‘crash’… I wrote
Stop for a second
can you feel it
of such magnificence
Stop, look and listen
space around you is full
so many helpers
supporting your healing journey
You are magnificent
can’t you hear their song
where along this dusty road
did you lose your sight?
You’ve become lost
your original purpose forgotten
you believed their lies
thieves, they’ve been many
Dear sweet soul
your journey has scarred you
but not taken away
who you are
Wipe the sleep from your eyes
rise from your sitting
show the world
your beautiful Heart
We’ve been here all along
encouraging you ever forward
allowing the weight of the darkness
you’ve suffocated your ‘knowing’
Yes Life here is a paradox
yes, there’s darkness and Light
yes, there’s always a choice
yes, we always need some help
So ask, ask & ask some more
you’ve never stood alone
we’ve always been so close to you
we’ll never ever leave you
You’re so important to us.
We’re approaching the Spring Equinox (here in the South)… birthing time … new life… new beinginnings. Time for new growth.