Month: October 2012

Yes these are Big Times . . . but so much is being given.

It’s like a Renaissance . . . . the Birthing. . .  of a whole new Story.  Personally, I feel incredibly grateful to have taken this journey . . . of 2011 and 2012 . . . here at Mahalia.  I gave her that name . . . or so I thought . . . obviously she allowed me to feel it.  The name represents Tenderness. . . and marrow . . . ‘the innermost, best or essential part . . . the core . . . the central Power.  She is all of those things.

She drew me here . . . to heal . . . to teach me about Magick.  I knew,  many years ago, when I first ‘visioned’  her . . . that there was something I needed to learn.  I make . . . well co-create . .  Flower Essences . . . I thought it may have been going ‘deeper’ into the understanding of natural medicines.  I couldn’t have imagined how it was going to be . . . . we never can . . . can we.

Nothing really happens . . . as we imagine.  It has its own unique path. . .  of manifestation.  It’s good that way.  We get so many beautiful surprises.  I had my plans, yes . . . my dreams . . . my wishes; but I also had my intuitive vision . . . and I listened to the calling.  My curiosity and pioneer spirit . . . helps here too.  And I love learning. . . love growing . . . it’s the best sensation.  And with my little Capricorn Moon . . . which often gets such a bad rap . . . ‘particularly not good for a woman’ . . . well I have to disagree . . . Yes, situations, especially emotional ones, haven’t been easy . . . but when are they . . .  especially being a woman . . brought up on all those doctored stories . . . and without the support of the Goddesses.  But she (Capricorn Moon) connects me to the Earth . . . to her energy of manifestation . . . the core, the structure of Life . . . her foundation . . . so she’s really pretty groovy.  And . . . she demands authenticity ..  . . oohhh . . . from me . . .  and others.

But I heard the call . . . I listened . . . and I responded.  Yes it took courage . . . but we’re made of that stuff . . . aren’t we girls.  We give birth . . . .

I followed their enchanting, hypnotic sound . ..  and they brought me here.

Over these 2 years much has happened to me.  I got to stop . . .  really stop . . . and listen .  I got to stop . . . really stop . .  and ‘See’.  And that changed my life forever.  I’ve always been a bit of a sensitive chick . . . a modern woman with ancient roots . . . but this ‘learning’ that’s been so generously offered . . . I could never have found . . . no matter where I went . . . or who I asked.  It was personal, so very personal . . . tuition . .  by the ‘Goddesses’ themselves . . . . the, so very, Ancient Feminine Wisdom . . . from which our precious Earth is created.

It radiates from the Earth . . . it shines from the trees . . . our most ancient wisdom keepers.  It glows from the flowers and plants . . . and welcomes us thru our animal friends.  It’s in the air . . . the water we drink . . . it’s the Energy of Life . . . that we live and breathe.  Mother Earth is made from this Sacred Wisdom . . . she radiates it . . . and speaks it constantly.

I was invited here . . . to experience it.  I wasn’t expecting anything like this.  How could I . . . it was beyond my understanding and previous experience . . .  or at least that I consciously remembered.   So yes Magick exists . . . . I use that word often . . . ’cause I reckon it’s the best there is . . . to really describe . . . what’s really going on.

I can tell you I feel incredibly grateful . . . for all that’s been given . . . and continues to be given . . . . every day .. . . every moment.  We are all so incredibly fortunate . . . to be alive . . . and living on this so very Sacred Planet.  An awakening to this Sacredness . . . is essential.

have a glorious day

lotsa luv. . . . marilynxxxx

 

 

Totally embraced

by Her enormous, loving arms

She holds me

I feel Her so close.

My body tingles

with Her delicate touch

I hear Her whisper

I Love you so much.

I feel her presence

so thick . . . so full

Tears come

I feel Her so near.

Divinity touches

comes close . . .  caresses

Life created

from the blood of the Creator.

I feel this Magick

penetrate my skin

entering my Body

our Blood mingles

and merges.

I have the Creator’s Blood

within me

no distance

no separation between us.

Tears come

my Body tingles

a Blessed Child

I Honour the Giving.

Everything so full

no separation

all together

singing the Glory.

Awaken my voice

please help me to sing

sing your Glory

while I still have breath.

I’m a Child of God

there is no doubt here

I’m Loved and Loved

then more Love is given.

My eyes wide open

with magickal wonder

at all that is present

open and receiving.

Can I continue to sing

sing your Glory

LIFE is HAPPENING

there is no greater miracle.

Morning has awoken

a new day is dawning

all around me

the welcoming chorus

Magick is happening.

lots of love

marilynxxx

My alarm’s reliable . . . she’s white and furry, with a distinctive sound . . . there’s no chance of ignoring.  She’s mobile this alarm . . . and carries some weight . . . she doesn’t ring on the bed-side table . .  she hops up and sits directly in front of your face!!  She goes off about the same time each day . . . around 4am.

This morning I was tired . .  weary inside and out . . . a big day yesterday . . . still feeling the effects.  I tried to linger. . . roll over . . . go back to sleep . . . ‘no’ I say to my little furry friend.  Off she jumps . . . but she’s immediately back.  Now I’m awake. . . it’s time to get out of bed.

No thoughts of Meteors . . . or going outside. . . slowly this morning. . . the Body wants to go. . . . on this crisp beginning of another dawn.  Went to boil some water . . . to add to my lovely mix. . . of fresh ginger and cardamon and a stick of coiled cinnamon.  Ahh, bottles empty . . . need to go outside to get some more . . . I put rain water in coloured bottles. . . and leave them out in the Sun.

They got me outside . . .sneaky little/big buggers!  Too tired, I thought  . .  for more adventures this morning.  But once my eyes spotted regal Jupiter . . . glowing his brilliance . . .  at the exact mid-point, again, sitting above the beautiful Tree.  They had me.

Orion still crowning Jupiter . . . never too far away from his beloved Pleiadian Maidens.  Pleiades to the left (would be 12th house in the ‘chart’) . . . so small. . .  but so enchantingly hypnotic.  Rising in the East . . . again at the mid-point . . .Venus sparkles her magnificent Beauty.

I was caught, once again . . .  in the Magick of the Morning.  When Day meets Night. . . they embrace and share their stories  . . . before returning to their duties.

WOW!!  Unexpected . . . a Meteor dives with such magickal presence . . . flies thru the air . . . direct. . . from Jupiter to the Pleiades.  My tummy fills with butterflies . . . my eyes fill with tears . . . captured in the Magick. . . . once again.

Then another . . . again across the Pleiades . . . I’m caught, really caught. . . . the Magick has got me.  It’s not easy to describe the sensations I’m having. . . my Body feels sparkly . . . excited . . . and enchanted.  ‘Caught in the Magick’ . . . best way I can describe it.

Then out of the very corner of my eye . . . I see a flash . . . a brilliant flash of golden light.  My head spins swiftly . . . quickly turning . . . what was that???  I saw it . . . I saw it.  It was a thick trail of golden light . . .  heading for the horizon . . . in the very exact . . . North East corner.

That just blew me away . . . . what an amazing blessing. . . . .

Oh . . .just before that dazzling show of Meteor brilliance caught my eye . . . an Owl flew, inches from my face . . . circling my head.  Boy, what a morning!

A  tired little girl this morning . . . with no thoughts of magick. . . . just wanting to linger inside . . . warm and nurtured.

Yes Life is Magick all right . . . really. . .  it’s the only way. . .  I can describe it.

 

Enjoy the Magick . . . while you have the chance

lotsa luv . . . . marilynxxxx

It’s been a wee bit sensitive of late . . . .  lots moving, uncovering and being tender.  Saturn’s in Scorpio.

Out in the pre-dawn, it’s 4am . . . keen to see the meteor showers . . . alas, there’s significant cloud cover . . . no complaints . . . those rain clouds are needed.  I’m willing to wait . .  . .  so pull my sun-bed out to the uncovered deck . . . get myself a cup of tea . . . and of course my journal and pen . . . it’s very dark at this time!!  I focus and wait, nothing much is visible . . . cloud cover moving, revealing each sparkle one by one.  Then bingo. . . I see one . . . it’s always really special to see . . . ‘falling stars’ . . . wonderful wishes can be made.   Still keen, I sit and wait . . . then begin feeling all around me.  Thinking . .  . everything is energy, everything has a vibration.  I may not be able to see the Meteors . . . but I can feel them!  So start focusing on the energy  . . . so much Life . . . so much is happening.  Everything’s so still and silent . . .  yet so full . .  and so incredibly enchanting.

My focus wanders to Jupiter . . .  he’s sitting mid-point on top of the beautiful tree, not far from where I am sitting . . . the ‘MC’ I think . . . the highest mid-point in the Astrological chart . . . shining his Light for the benefit of all.  Above Jupiter sits Orion and the Pleiades . . . I’ve had a visit from the Pleiadians . . . it was during the Pleiadian Eclipse a few months back . ..  that was a ‘first’ . . . and another story.

I allow myself to feel the energy . . . receive the ‘transmissions’. . .  so much is being given.  Yes Life is giving . . . every single moment . . . yes Life is Magick . . . real, pure Magick . . . .filled with such exquisite wisdom, kindness and giving.  And the Beauty . . . so awesome.

Another Meteor . . .  this one goes straight to Jupiter . . . as if confirming my thinking.  The darkness  now infiltrated by the Light . . . the little bird in the tree (still don’t know who he is) . . . his amazing vocal chords . . . he’s been at it since 4am!  Others  join him now. . . from the forest . . . the oh so familiar sound of the Kookas . . . one by one they join . . .  together creating that Ozzie morning chorus.

I sit looking at Jupiter . . . he’s obviously playing a big part in this incredible morning.  I watch him moving westwards, no longer at the mid-point of the beautiful Tree.  I realize  . . . he’s not moving . . . I am!   I feel myself moving thru space . . . sitting on this massive ball, dangling in air . . . experiencing myself travel thru time . . .now that’s an awesome experience!

More light . . . morning’s arriving.  Have seen 4 meteor showers. . . . what real Magick!   A wondrous morning . . . out here at the beginning of this brand new day . . . then I remember . .  October 22nd . . . my dear, dear Mother’s Birthday.

Lots of emotion comes to the surface, tears and many memories. ‘Forgiveness’ arises . . . . I tried to ‘save’ her and I couldn’t.  Forgiveness has been turning up a lot this last week also  ‘Loving deeply’ . . . . first impressions were . . . jeez that’s way too hard!  It’s Saturn in Scorpio time . . .  these visits can be delicate.  Feelings go very, very deep . . . the foundations of our emotions.  We’re visiting Hade’s territory.

It’s been very tender . . . this last little while . . .  lots of emotions . . . lots of feelings.  Now I’m a Virgo . .  with a Moon in Capricorn . . . and Gemini Ascendant . . . emotions some times don’t get a look in . . . well that’s what I tell myself anyway!!!  But no way of ignoring them when the vacuum cleaner’s moving thru your psyche . . . a trip down to Hades . . . often isn’t a light one.

I think I sometimes forget I’m human . . . forget  I’m a woman . . . just live in my head . . . it can be very entertaining of course . . . but certainly not the full picture!  I’m not just a head . . . I’m a Body. . . I have feelings . . . emotions too . . .  even if at times  they confuse me and spark off a need . . .  to run for the hills.  Lots happening . . . well, I guess . . . when aren’t they?  But this cycle of Saturn is already been very revealing.

Completing the morning’s story . . . . my dearest Mum died during the last Saturn in Scorpio cycle.   A lot happened that year . . . 1982.  It’s now 2012 and there’s been many years of living since then.  Tender ‘things’ will always appear . . . but you know.  . . I think I’m learning to work with them . . . within myself . . . then there’s not such urgency to manifest them outwards.

Meteors, Jupiter, Orion and the Pleiades . . . . Saturn in Scorpio . . . and my beautiful Mum’s birthday . . . . it’s been a very BIG morning.

All I did was get up early . . .  sit outside in my comfy day-bed . . . look up . . . feel . . . . and receive all that was being given. . .  and that was considerable.

Life is Magick.

Enjoy you, Living

lotsa luv

marilynxxx

Sitting out in the coolness . . . the Sun’s not yet risen . . . in the bosom of my dear Mother . . . a hot day forecast.   Mr Solar’s rays could be furious.  But at present . . the air caresses with such gorgeous cool freshness . . . welcoming the day . . . with her tantalizing, wispy fingers.

I’m tired . . . very tired . .  you could say exhausted . . . a big day yesterday shopping, heat and long bus rides . .  some so bumpy, nerve cells  vibrating.  But it’s gorgeously cool now . . . the wind freshening my skin . .  I accept all the blessings . . . ’cause later, could be different.  Mother Nature’s amazing that way . . . so many complex sides to her nature.

The coolness is close . . . I snuggle into my favourite fleecy cape . .  the most gorgeous green . . . I wear it often . .  well, when it’s cold.  The winds keep blowing, but gentle and kind . .  I can feel the penetration . .  past the surface of my skin. Like all magick mornings . .  the chorus of bird life . . . exquisite in its beauty . . . healing in its vibration. Everything’s so still . . . so full . . . so loving. . . tears well . . . overwhelmed by the Giving. Life does give . . . in fact she’s giving every second . ..  with such exquisite abundance . . . such Beauty and Healing.

The cows . .  a few chomping . .  most still lingering in their resting . .  such a precious time . . .this Life of Breathing.  I feel her arms around me. . .  she cradles me with such pure Loving . . . again come the tears . . . oh how I’m Loved so completely.

I breathe in this Magick. .  it tingles . . . it dances . .  it sparkles . . . with Life Force . . . its Pure Healing Substance.  As it journeys thru my body . . caressing and healing . .  bringing back to Life . . . filling empty spaces.

It’s a miracle . . . I’m alive . .  and I live in Heaven . . . a Land so Sacred . . . beauty incomparable.  Right before our eyes . .  is everything we’re searching . . take it in . . thru every crevice.  Allow the Love to wash over your being, bringing Life . . . bringing your answers.

I feel so overwhelmed . . yes, I’m tired . .  but the Loving brings tears . . the majesty so pure. . . a purity so fine.  Life is giving each and every second. . . giving what?  Well, no words can describe it. Best you experience it for yourself . . . and then you’ll know it.  Go outside (if you can) . .  take a deep breath in, open your eyes . . . and see where you’re sitting.

Life is short . . .our opportunities limited . . . I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again . . my Gratitude flows over.  Breathe in the Magick!

lotsa luv . . .  marilynxxxx

Out in the pre-dawn morning . . .  admiring Venus  . . there’s silence . . .then out of this silence . . . Life begins, expressing itself  in such joy-filled ways.  The magnificent Beauty of Venus . . . the delightful slither of the Moon . . .  as she prepares to end one cycle . . . . and soon begin another.  Melodic sounds begin piercing the air . . . the birds are up . . . there’s plenty of activity.

Laden clouds of mist . . .  hang heavily over the valleys . . . pink wisps of cloud herald the arrival of the Sun god . . . and his many magnificent blessings.  Magick all around . . . I breathe in this Sacred Prana . . . clearing my nostrils . . . filling my air bags.  It swirls thru my tissues  . . transforming all stale energy.  It brings Life. . . it brings Life . . . to all parts of my Body.

It’s getting closer now . . . not long, till the Sun bursts over the horizon . . . of forested woods . . . full of wildlife . . . creatures big and small,  some so tiny.  Life is happening . . . the Sacred has manifest.

Three ducks fly in unison . . . keeping each other company . . . balls of fog still lifting from the valley.  Must be chilly down there . . . on this cool Spring October morning.  A gorgeous Lorikeet . . .  flies close by me . . . things to be done . . .  lots of activity.

The Sun’s getting closer . . . it’s a very chilly morning . . . awaiting his presence . . . to bless us with his fire rays.  Flints of mauve colour begin on the mountains . . . the highest points now catching those golden beams.  The contrasts in the colours . . . . . . so subtle but exquisite . . . fog still hugging in crevices and corners.  Like ghosts they move . . . thinly spreading . . . slowly rising . . . like steam from a kettle.

At the base of the mountain . . . they’re creeping further . . . . dispersing in volume . . .  everything is alive . . . everything is living.  This gorgeous hue . . . now spreads generously . . along the tops of the mountains . . . the Sun still not come out of his hiding.  Gentle wisps of white cloud . . . so fine . . . and move so slowly . . . thru the early morning sky . . .  heading southwards.

The Sun has hit the top of the hill . . . under the mountain . . . where the cows like to gather.  It’s spreading quite quickly now . . . . his golden light magick.  Still no Sun visible . . .  here in the low parts . . . but over on the hill . . . a glorious light filled panorama . . spreading freely . . . his magick medicine.

It now covers the entire hill . . .  all over the mountain . . . Life is just Magick . . . so grateful for all this giving.  Ghostly clouds of mist still rising from their slumber . . . filling the spaces . . . with images of Neptune.

Still no Sun . . . my fingers are freezing . . .  it’s a cold Spring start to this October morning.

But then yes . . . he arrives . . .  and fills us with his magick . . . . thank you

marilynxxxx

Well you might ask . . what has cows got to do with Saturn . . . and boundaries?  That area where they’re standing is the northern boundary of ‘my’ property .  It’s been an ‘issue’ that’s occupied some of my head space for sometime . . . over the last 2 years (during the last Saturn cycle).  You see, the boundary fence is in the wrong place . . .  considerably further up than it should be . .  so the neighbours cows automatically congregate there, as that’s where the gorgeous dam is . . . then they continue on to my place.  I don’t  mind ’cause they keep the grass down . . . . and they’re nice to have around . . . when they’re not making a god awful racket . . . at 2am in the morning . . right outside my bedroom window!  It’s usually when Mum and Bub are caught on different sides of the fence . . .  it can be torture . .  . trying to sleep.  There have been times . . . when I couldn’t stand it anymore. . .  up out of bed . . . and chasing these bloody cows all around the paddock at 2am in the morning. . . . not impressed!  But they’re naturally sweet . . . of course  . . . when they behave!!

So I wanted my ‘own’ animals in the paddock . . .  then they wouldn’t get caught on different sides of the fence . . . and it’s nice to have your own  . . .I’d never send them off to the abattoir . . . shudder, shudder.  But this meant having a new fence put up in the right place so then the boundaries between the properties would be clear.  Well . . . you know how neighbours can be (of course . . . always sweet . . . not! . . Lets be real here (more Saturn)).  You see I moved to a small country town . . . and I was brought up a city girl . . . and I’m on my own and I’m female . . . so these country blokes reckon they have me pegged . . . . bloody infuriating.  I tried my best . . . I was friendly, I was considerate (my usual self), I was cheerful, I was polite and positive . . . but he continued (my male neighbour) to walk all over me.  Yes it did eventually dawn on me. . . . .BOUNDARIES marilyn . . . .YOU NEED BOUNDARIES!  And interestingly with this last Saturn in Libra cycle . . .RELATIONSHIPS . . . most definitely were huge learning lessons . . . . relationships of many different kinds . . .  not just the romantic/love kind.  I had relationships with my country neighbours, with the small village I’d moved to . . .  and the people in it . . . my own personal relationship ended (after a long time) . . .my relationship with my body . . . was centre stage . . . my relationship with the Land grew exponentially . .  my relationship with Energy . . . my relationship with myself . . . . . yes siree a super big cycle of Relationship lessons.

Anyway . . .I knew it was time . . . time for those boundaries . . . in all ways.  So called up the guy . . . and the fence is being done weekend after next.  Now that’s significant . . . ’cause it’s not just physical . . .  this is also energetic . . . .I’m creating my boundaries around me . . . . something that’s not always been easy for me . . .  with my saturation of Neptune . . . . Neptune dissolves boundaries . . . . which can be useful at times, yes . . but boundaries are also very necessary.  So I’ve set an intention . . . to create boundaries in my life . . . . and during this time as Saturn moves house . . . this is significant . . . . it’s a real accomplishment (more Saturn) for me . . . .  I’m making sure I’m safe and secure during the next Saturn cycle . .  in Scorpio.

Astrologers will often mention to look back to the last time a planet went through a specific journey . . . . Saturn last transversed Scorpio  back in 1982 -84.  Well I don’t have to think much to remember those years . . .  they were BIG.  I’d experienced a drastic change in environment . . .  I’d been living in an Ashram for 10 yrs and moved out it 1981 . . .  my dearest Mother was battling cancer . . .  she died, so young, in 1982 . . . I experienced pregnancies (a surprise!! didn’t think it was possible), terminations, extreme trauma, relationship breakdown (whilst pregnant) . . . heaps of unresolved emotions . . .  whilst hormones raged through me.  My dear brother in jail (he’s not a criminal) . . . he called from the prison pleading with me to bail him out before the end of the day . . . . some prisoners had put a contract out on him . . . and they were going to kill him that night. . . . fortunately I was able to do this, it took a bit thou! Yes Scorpionic energy was everywhere . . . and Saturn’s lessons needed to be learnt . . . unfortunately, sometimes it’s the hard way.

In 1984 my beautiful boy was born . . .at the end of such a concentrated time.  Such an amazing blessing he has always been . . .a very special soul . . . with a heart full of such beauty and love . . . I feel very blessed to have him in my life.  Yes Saturn’s lessons were hard . . .  I obviously needed to learn them . . .  but the rewards were magnificent.

I have no fear (more Saturn) of this coming Scorpio cycle . . .  in fact it feels magnificent . . . Saturn takes us on a ride . . . . up hills, over deserts . . . but always brings us to the most amazing oasis. . . . we need to trust this.  Saturn is solid . . . Saturn is real . . . Saturn protects with his boundaries . . . Saturn builds . . . . he’s so very wise . . . he understands the meaning of Time . . . he governs cycles . . . also the cycle of Life and Death . . . he’s there when we need to leave . . . . he teaches us all about Life . . .  he really is a very loyal friend.

So get to know your friend Saturn . . . no he won’t pamper your ego . . . he’s got his feet on the ground . . . and boy he knows about Life . . .  and he’s the master of these lessons.  So when the times get hard . . . listen more carefully . . . he’s trying to tell you something.  He’ll definitely be there when you stray off the path . . . . he can be strict . . . and a wee bit authoritarian.  But he knows what he’s doing . . . he’s taking you through life . . . now that’s pretty amazing . .  he actually constructs the very structure of your body . . . your bones. . . . the frame on which your body operates.  So if you’re experiencing Saturn symptoms look a little closer . . .  what is he trying to tell you . . . you may have wandered where it’s not safe for you . . . . he’ll be the first one there . . . to let you know.

So sitting on the cusp . . . as Saturn moves into a new home . . .  there’ll be lots of lessons . . . that’s for sure . . . . but listen to him . . . . he’s working for your good . . .  trust him . . .  and he’ll lead you to where you want to go.

Oodles of Love. . . . and bountiful Saturn travels

lotsa luv. . . .  marilynxxxx

(ps . . .this blog’s been  hard work (more Saturn . . .) WordPress doing all sorts of strange things this morning . . . . but perseverance. . . . also Saturn . . .)